Wesley (a.k.a the United Methodist HIGH SCHOOL Ministry)

Yes, I will admit, I am a bit angry. I am more frustrated at the situation. What a better place for me to vent than this venue. In the past week, it seems that people have tried to manipulate me into believing that my theology and my decision about my spirtual nourishment is the wrong one. I have tried to leave them alone. I have been very big about it, simply because we're not in HIGH SCHOOL, it's colege.

On Thursday, I sent the word that I wasn't going to Galveston. I wanted to make a list out before I went and talked to Tom, even though I don't owe him any explaination for leaving Wesley. I simply said that I didn't hear from them until that Tuesday about detials for Saturday and they missed the opportunity. April is so hectic, and I just simply don't have time for folks that can't have the decency to keep me informed about something I am helping them out for. I also mentioned that Wesley was not the place for me anymore and said that I would be glad to discuss it further. I thought that this was a very mature way to settle the matter and really it was the easiest on me.

Sorry, that's not the end of the story. Wish it was, but what would the UMHSM be without a little drama? Well, the way folks act, I would expect nothing less. I got an email from Tom explaining that he was "flabbergasted" at my decision-making regarding the Wesley. That's a direct quote folks.... In fact, he said that he had so much respect for me while I was there.....that's why he is manipulating my emotions now, right? He said that "I hope that you find what you are looking for..." Am I a lost puppy? Does he think I will eventually "wander home" when I need some "food to eat"? Well, I thought about it all weekend and though, "ya know, I still don't owe him an explanation. we'll just leave it at this....no more". WRONG!

Apparently on there mission / fun time trip....I was the topic of conversation...how I betray the Wesley and how I am gone for good. Not that they are wrong....but from what I understand, they're not even telling folks the right reason why I left. Here it is folks....loud and clear:

Just like in algebra....

X+Y=Z BUT does X=Z....nope....you have to have the "Y". That part of the equation is pivotal in order for the function to work properly. Just the same with a "church". If you have all these wondrrful ministries, but you don't have God in the equation....you are wasting time. You are robbing students of that. I chose not to be a part of that....in fact, I chose a ministry, a church, where everything we do and say is focused on Him and His Word. I had said all along....I could care less if 3 students showed up....as long as we were sharing the Gospel and the love of Chrsit...that's all WE have to do. Why is that so confusing.

My gut reaction at this point, out of anger, is to do something back. BUT, that's exactly what the Wesley wants from me....to come crawling back begging for their mercy and forgiveness. I don't need it. I enjoyed the time I had there....I feel that my spiritual walk never progressed there....but, I am no longer blind in my ways any more (haha, laugh it up!). I am so blessed to be at my church with people who include me in everything they do...and that's the way it should be.

Sorry for venting, however, it gave you something to read. Now get back to work...I know you all have something better to be doing. Later...