Stuck...

I'm stuck. I know what's right and wrong here. I know what needs to be done....but connecting those together is the tough part. First off, I have stated time and time again, "I'm done with Wesley". Why can't I just come out and say that UP FRONT and HONESTLY.

I met with Tom and Carl today and couldn't just flat out say "I'm done". I think I am just too nice. I've always said, I think God blessed me wth my abilities to help serve His people. I feel like whenever some one is in need of those talents/abilities, I love to jump at the opportunity because I feel God blessed me for a reason. I felt like when I left I was just belittled and manipulated. I am done with that. I am done with the manipulation. I am going to stand up for what I believe is right. Whether it be theology or just the fact I don't want to be bullied....not the point here. In the next week I am going to tell Tom the reason I am leaving Wesley, and it may not go down so well, but it's the way it is going to be.

On a lighter note.....summer and fall plans are falling together nicely (there's just no easy way to transition from that). I am always seeking God on my destination for college. I am sick and tired of wasting time and if I continue to call the shots, I will be here for nearly a decade. It's time for me to give it up and let Him show me where I am supposed to go. I am starting to think teaching would be good, but I just don't know. I want to be excited about something for once, other than getting out of here. Hey, I should just move to Nashville and go to Belmont......I wish.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention this....I got a PDA yesterday. Got it for a few reasons; the screen lends itself to reading hte Bible very easy....which was a plus and a half for me (it's difficult to find something portable to read for a Bible...does that make sense), it keeps me organized schedule-wise, it's got WiFi and Bluetooth, and it can play mp3's and video. It wasn't too expensive and I think it will help with alot of aspects of my life. Kinda weird huh?

Until later...