Need I Say More

Where would I be in life now without Christ? I have been pondering this lately, because I am feeling like I have been growing lately, spirtually and mentally. I think Christ has helped me become the person I have always wanted to be, one that can be counted on, one that walks with integrity, one that can people want to be around. I look back at what I used to be like, the negativity, the hatefulness, the awful and horrible things I used to do.

I have been listening to this Hillsongs United "Look To You" CD, and there are so many wonderful songs on that CD...but one in particular speaks loudly to my heart ("Deeper"). Musically it is beautiful, I love it....lyrically, at the end of the chorus, it says: "..and Lord my soul delights and I know You hear my prayer, take me deeper Lord." I want to know Him more...theere's always more to learn, more to experience, more to do to be more like Him. He is my one and only and and I crave that time I spend with God, growing deeper and deeper with Him.

Lately, I am finding myself realizing mistakes I am making, as a Christian, as a boyfriend, as a worship leader....not bad mistakes, not mistakes that are harmful; yet, they are things that need changing. I feel like as a worship leader I still have much to learn, though I know I am called to do so. SO, lately, I have been blessed with lots of experience, not only leading worship, but helping Todd put together demos for his worship songs. In this process, I am learning what it takes to put this together, and see another side. As a worship leader, I feel that unintentionally, I may have been a litte overpowering with music in the worship service. I am coming to realize, Wesley doesn't respond to music as much as they do the Word. I need to be respectful of that, still allowing them an opportunity to have worship in song. The more experience I have, the more little details that I need to consider.

I feel like I am babbling, and I apologize to my many loyal followers (all 5 of you)....I will move on....Grace Bible Church is opening the new worship center in 2 weeks. I am very excited because as a worship leader, I see this move as a change dynamically for the music ministry. This church responds well to music and with more space and a better sound system, a full band is possible. I am pumped for this service, and in this, I have decided to purchase a new drum kit....WOW! This new drum kit, the exact same one I have now, except a different color, will be a good addition to what I have now because with more opportunities comes more traveling, more wear and tear, more hassles....so, one kit is in Lufkin and one kit is in Nacogdoches....good idea!

Look, let's face it, I don't have lots of free time to write in this thing, as you all can tell. I'll admit, I have a problem, its called inconsistancy, OK......I'm trying. What more do you want from me? Until tomorrow...