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This morning has been very frustrating. I decided on Tuesday that I wanted to meet with my pastor, Justin Beadles, and just discuss the Bible, theology, and life in general. So we decided on Thursday's at 10:30a, we would do that.

I show up with alot on my mind. Number one, Wesley is still eating me up. I am so torn between what I think I should do, and what I know needs to be done. Number two, I am struggling knowing that entering into this meeting (this Bible study if you willl), I am a "doof". I don't know scripture, really at all. Excuses aside, I have not been exposed to it as much as I needed to be. I have grown bored with it, and therefore, don't immerse myself in it. As ashamed as I am about that, Justin never made me feel dumb.

Justin started by handing me an object, told me not too look, but simply make observations. I, out of confusion, just straight up told him it was a dice. I am not a patient person, and when I am frustrated and confused, I just blurt what I think is appropriate. He then told me just to make observations, just small ones, and tell details I can understand and see about it.

You have to open your eyes and observe to fully comprehend and understand what it means to you. Speaking about scripture, without observing and gathering information, you'll never find the application for you life.

We moved in to the Word and looked at this verse of scripture:

Acts 1:8 (New International Version)

8But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."

We looked at that scripture, and honestly, I couldn't gather much. Knowning me, or maybe even some of you don't know this but I'll sahre regardless. I don't read the Bible. Whether it's becase I can't see it and hearing it bores me, or whether I just don't...it's unimportant....what's the important thing is, just using what Justin showed me, I am pumped!

We broke that verse down, and made tons of observations, from the word "but", to the verb tense of "will receive", etc. There's oddles of observations one can make. I am not going to lie....it's frustrating, because I am still struggling to observe and absorb all of it. However, I understand that it's not supposed to be easy. We're not supposed to be able to open up the Bible and just inhale all the knowledge of the Word. If we could do that....it would not bare as much importance on our lives as it does today.

Justin is an incredible leader and a fantastic pastor. If anyone is in this area and can visit one Sunday, DO IT! Justin Beadles has, in one meeting, changed my life. That's odd to say, but, I can honestly say that my outlook on the Bible is completely changed. Will I still struggle with it? Probably... Is it going to be hard? Of course! But, I want it to be. I want to dig deeper and deeper to find the answers to further my walk.

We prayed for a better understanding of the Word, and the ability to observe it's many wonderful things and to be able to better observe details. We then talked about me, and things I do and think about. We brought up Wesley, and some of the issues I have...some big, some not-so big, and some minor issues. I am drawing closer to a conclusion, but, I need time to think everything through and decide what's better for the sitaution. God's going to be there whichever way I go.

Anyways, that was my morning....