My Life at Present

I'm moving...

2006-11-29T22:21:00.000-08:00

www.justinromack.com

No more posts here folks. Catch me at my site for more bloggin' action - and yes, I actually blog on this one.

Want to share...

2006-11-25T14:29:00.000-08:00

Welcome to LaQwendy's
Serving the Terrell, Texas area

Angela, my brother, and I were driving back from Dallas fro the Thanksgiving plans and Nick spotted this sign. First of all, I couldn't see it, and I wanted to. Secondly, Angela and I thought it was just a burnt bulb or something that gave it the appearance of a black Wendy. Well, we drove back, and sure enough, it was.

We saw two different Wendys' on the same store. The picture above, and then the typical Wendy logo (below). I wanted to share because this was a very different dipiction of Wendy than your typical one.

**EDIT**
LaQwendy's is property of Mrs. Kelly Finnerud. LaQwendy's and all associated references are the sole creative property of the above mentioned.

2006-11-20T23:14:00.000-08:00

I lied. Okay, I admit. I told a bold-face lie. I didn't update "tomorrow", I didn't update the next day, and nor did I make a post taht week. I feel awful, just downright dispicable for being dishonest to my faithful readers who, even in my absence, carry on the very goal of my blog - to stay connected. It's just such an awful situation, I truly hope that you guys will continue to check back here, even though, I probably won't post. Why did I lie? Because I'm a bad person...

Life's been pretty weird the last few weeks. Things have been consuming my day and I find myself at midnight wondering where the time went. I have been busy trying to catch up in my classes and do some work with Reason. Guys, I have some cool stuff to share with you from my recent exploration of Reason. I am working on my site as we speak. I am attempting to move my blog to justinromack.com and store all my Reason files there. Have some pretty cool loops, songs, and projects to which I am actually going to turn in for a grade in my electronic music class. I just got done an hour or so ago on a project I had with Dave. We came up with a hip-hop track called "Pearl Harbor at Sunset". Why is it called that??? I have no freakin' idea....

Been doing a lot of work on drum lessons. I just got asked to teach another student. I am rally excited about this opportunity because I am finding out more and more that God has allowed me to work well with kids. I feel it's definately a gift...because a lot of people cannot do it. I am drawing ever closer to the idea of teaching one day...but, I just don't know what. I am scheduling a meeting with a career counselor next spring and we are coming up with a plan for my final few semesters so that I can find the accomodations I need for my career. Exciting stuff!

On the drum front...I am in the process of securing funds for a new drum kit. I had some pretty neat contributions to this fund from my family and have some good support. I am looking at the DW route...which I will have custom-built through either Guitar Center or a custom drum shop called West Coast Drums. I am not sure when this purchase is going to occur, but it is becoming more probable as the days progress. I am meeting with a guiy from Guitar Center this week to get a price quote and a better idea of what to do. I have considered a few other options, but I am wadding through them....I will keep you posted.....actually, I may lie again.

Church has been really interesting lately. We have started our Join the Journey "campaign" and it is going well. We had some mishaps that were resolved that definately hindered us for a while...but God prevails! In the last week, it is my understanding that the numbers have doubled for sign-up. I am trying to shake the mentality of looking at numbers, because I am not a numbers person - but it's an easy trap to fall into. I would definately recommend you guys checking out the Journey. Go to www.gracebiblechurch.com and read more. It's very exciting. In other church news, I had the week off completely this past week. I did run sound for Crosspoint, but that was by choice. It was very relaxing not to have practices and whatnot, but I am actually really anxious to play this week.

Well, I am off to sleep. Going to the vet with Mandi and Angela tomorrow. Have two drum lessons and a report to begin working on. Alright, I will post sometime again - better not set a time frame...I don't like setting myself up for failure.

Peace!

Dodging the Bullet

2006-10-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

You guys will get a real post tomorrow...but, for now:

Why are an overwhelming majority of college students so stupid? Let me pose a better question - why are they so immature and isrespectful? I understand it is a little awkward to roll out the kegs and get tanked at 3 in the afternoon, but, I would much rather be around that then why I attempt to study for a test tomorrow. Now, I would be thrilled if I didn't have to see any of that. I knew it was going to be a bad night when Angela and I pulled up to the house and girls were dancing in the parking lot. Sheesh...

Got a lot to talk about, but, too frustrated and too exhausted to share right now. Wanted to vent so I could press on.

Extra-Cheese

2006-10-06T22:19:00.000-07:00

Ok, this is open to everyone...and I expect to see some response.

I am going to pose a question that I am sure has been asked before, but I haven't seen/read it before, so I think this is a fair question. Let me first start by saying that, this blog post has been in my head for a long time. I just forget to post it, but, everytime I visit Lufkin - I remember, and you'll see why. So here we go:

"What's the cheesiest church sign you've read before?"

Ok, that's simple. Surely you've seen or read a sign that simply just made you cringe at the utter thought of it's cheesiness (yeah, that's a word). Here's the one I have at the moment:

"Be an organ donor, give your heart to Christ"

We're going to Tyler tomorrow, so I may have to update that...but there it is none the less. Alright, now it's your turn...answer me!

Go and get...

2006-10-02T22:05:00.000-07:00

...Jared Anderson's new CD. Now, let me say a few things. First off, it's not what I expected. First listen was not as impressive as I expected either. Now in saying that, here's why - I expected a majority of it to be a resource. Some of it is. But, a lot of it is performance-based, and that's cool too. I really enjoy it. Production quality is great! It is really nice to here some of his tunes that others have done, like "Rescue" and "Hear Us From Heaven".

It's available on iTunes tomorrow. It's some amazing stuff, and I dfeinately think you'll enjoy it. I am more impressed with this guy everytime I hear him.

Mpact Weekend

2006-10-02T16:25:00.000-07:00

I was given an amazing opportunity to play with some guys from Clear Creek Community this past weekend in leading there Mpact weekend for their student ministry. I went into the situation a bit nervous - honestly didn't know what to expect. Man, let me just start by saying, it was incredible! There were some amazing musicians on stage, who clicked rather quickly. It was truly an amazing worship opportunity.

We got there (Dave and I) on Friday afternoon. The facilities there were really nice...was very impressed. The guys rolled in later and we met and began to setup. Got a lot done, really quickly. I got to use the church's Gretsch Renown Maple Kit (very sweet setup). Definately my top-choice for my next drum kit. I tuned that bad boy up and it sang beautifuly. Just like maple drums should.

We got some great fellowship time in that evening and ran the morning's set. Hit the hay around 12:30ish.

Saturday's sets went really well. There were some minor mishaps that could have been avoided - but, all in all, the music was incredible. The speaker, Clint DeGroot (I think I spelled that correctly) did a good job. He was a guy that could connect with the kids, and that's important. Throughout the day I met a lot of great folks that do some amazing things. The fellowship time with the guys (and gal) were really nice too - here lately I have been running ninety-to-nothing, I haven't been able to hang out with folks.

Sunday flew by. Some amazing worship happened on Sunday...some amazing music was played, and the kids were so cool. I have a story from that last set on Sunday evening. So, we're at the end of the set and Daniel is talking to them about the last song, "Salvation is Here". Now some of the kids were a little more wound then others and some yelled, "we love you Daniel"...and that was that. Well, out of nowhere, from a row or so back from the front, I hear a girl yell something that I haven't heard before. Keep in mind I am behind a drum shield, the monitor next to my kit is blaring...and I hear "I love you Jesus.". I was taken aback. It was something I didn't expect to hear. Daniel heard it too! I think that put the weekend in prospective for me. I really feel like the worship team was able to bring the students to that point where they could just meet with God openly and freely and have no inhibitions about what surrounded them....and that alone is why I want to continue to do what I'm doing.

Some incredible opportunities have been thrust my way, and I cannot ignore them. God has truly given me the ability to play drums, and I think I do that well. I have talked time and time again about how I want to pursue music, but, I am serious. Friedns, I am not going to give up...I want it that bad! I want to play all the time, but not just play all the time, but I still want those time where I am serving students. I really want to be a part of playing these youth retreats and youth events. I find nothing more amazing then hearing a room full of 100 or so kids just praising God with all they have. It's an incredible experience....it truly is.

I think this weekend opened my eyes a bit more to music in itself. There were times when I would doubt my abilities. But, I really found that if I just loosened up, things sounded really good. The band sounded very tight. I think musically, I was playing things better than I have in a while. And it gave me hope to know that I can play with anyone, not just folks that I play with all the time (which I REALLY ENJOY DOING! - wouldn't give that up for anything....unless Jared Anderson asked me to play). I am going to keep pushing forward, and taking gigs with folks, because it is important. I love doing it and know it is what I am meant to do.

By the way, let me just let you all know. Daniel led the band. Did a fantastic job - a very talented musician, but also a great leader. He led the band well, as well as the students, and that's really important. His style and flow was really good too! Very good stuff. Dave did a great job on electric. He played some new stuff, so at times he was frustrated, but he shrugged it off and did a great job. A guy named Matt play bass and sang back-up. I have a feeling I will be talking about Matt for a while - a guy with some tremendous talent. A drummer's dream is to have a solid bass player to play with - and I have been blessed to play with a bunch of good bass players. Matt has an incredible voice too. He added some amazing depth to the musical landscape, if you will. Heather did female vox - great great stuff! She added a whole heck of a lot. And last but not least, Tim did all the sound detail. A brilliant engineer...got a heart to do it and the know-how. He made it sound good (and he's a mean blues guitarist too!). I met a bunch of other folks that I would have loved to connect with a bit more, but, hey, there's always next time...

Peace!

Home At Last

2006-10-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

I just got in from Livingston...

Amazing gig...great stories....better time...

I will sleep and tell them tomorrow.

Half-way

2006-09-28T14:13:00.000-07:00

So, this week was a toughie...but I've known it was going to be since the beginning of the month. Let's just go through a run-down:
Monday - studying my pants off (not literally - but it might have been funnier that way) for Poli. Sci. test - youl'll see why later. I spent a lot of the day at the church trying to get our wireless internet to work.
Tuesday - drum lessons in the afternoon at the church, still working on the internet. At 8:30, we had a practice for the Clear Lake gig. The rest of the guys didn't show up until 9:15ish. Rehearsed until midnight and then took about an hour to tear down and load the trailer. Fun times. Stayed up until 3:45 studying for Poli. Sci.
Wednesday - woke up at 6:30. Studied geography and more political science. Took my tests at 9 and then came home to do laundry and get ready to head to Clear Lake at 1. Played the gig and got hom at about 2am.
Today - woke up really late. I have studied some for my history test tomorrow and have finished laundry. I am heading to the church this evening and working with our newest drummer, Josh. He's going to fill in for me this week...thank goodness. Going to visit my family this evening and come home to polish cymbals and hardware and get ready for the next gig this weekend.
So, Clear Lake gig went well. We played for about 30-40 kids, which was a pretty slim crowd...but, that will change. Clay's only been there for a little while, so I expect the next time we play that it will be a much bigger crowd. It was there "SawYou@thePole Rally"...pretty neat to be a part of one of those. Clay took us to a great restraunt after the service and we got on the road shortly after. I got home and relaized I had dropped my house key somewhere in the process during the day. Don't know where, but it's gone... Found a way into the hosue and we asleep by 3.
Livingston gig is Friday through Sunday. Nervous, but it will be fine. I am playing on their drums...a sweet Gretsch maple kit. Very excited about that! Will keep you posted on how that goes.
Peace!

2006-09-24T22:28:00.000-07:00

I love my church! Seriously, you hear the statement all the time - and some of you feel this way. I am so glad I am at a oint in my life where I can say this. We are so blessed to have a pastor that is not afraid to preach the truth. I feel truly blessed that he is an approachable guy, and someone who can relate to what we - as students - are going through.

I love the fact I can be surround by folks who care for me, and want to help me. I am so excited and fired up to know that each week we will heart the truth of the Word and that I will leave challenged. Man, it's just such a cool feeling.

That is all my friends...

Peace!

Is it Needed?

2006-09-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

I have a question - and sorry, this is for musicians only...though folks who are not musically inclined may have some insight into this...who knows.

Why is it that an overwhelming majority of really talented musicians are so arrogant?

I have unfortunately experienced a lot of this. It's that "I'm-much-better-and-much-more-important-than-you'll-ever-be" attitude. It happens a lot with guys who are really talented. It's an ego thing I know...but I can't wrap my mind around why it has to end up that way. I have run into about three or four of this type of musician in the last month, and I don't like it.

If I ever become successful in music, you all have my word....arrogance will not be my game....

On another subject...I took a big step in my history - I bought something on iTunes! "WHAT?!?!" you may be saying (well - actually, if you said it like that you would be screaming in a questioining tone). I have been trying to track down a song or two by this band and Rhapsody and Napster don't have it. iTunes is just so manipulative with the way they format their music - but, they were the only ones that had it...so that is that. I know, it's a big step, but, big changes happen with baby steps my friends.

Peace!

Two Words

2006-09-19T20:48:00.000-07:00

...Vanessa Carlton

Man, this girl rocks! I have really been listening to her stuff lately. The drummer who did sessions for her, Abe Laboriel Jr., is a phenominal drummer. I have been listening to both of her CD's, which are both really really good. I would recommend taking a listen. I think the production is very very good also. There are so many different sounds going on, like dulicmer and harmonica, and some of the loop programming is pretty neat too. The guys that they got to record with her are all just amazing. But this drummer, man, he can throw it down. I have been reading a lot about him, some other projects he's done. He is amazing. But, still, Vanessa Carlton blows me away - very talented girl.

I am really trying to listen to a lot of different artists - rather than bands - to see what some session drummers are doing. We had a talk in my electronic music class today and it really hit me...I don't want to be in a band. I mean, right now, playing in bands is fine. But, when I start my career, I want to do session work instead.

A guy in my class got a letter from the school because he has been illegally downloading music. The school either fined him or shut off his internet (maybe both), but my profssor (Herbert Midgley) said that he was very lucky that the IRAA didn't get a hold of him. They don't play around. This dude could have been fined thousands of thousands of dollars.

In the discussion about copyright laws, we started talking about the breakdown of record sales and what bands see of that - and it isn't much. I didn't realize how much actually went back to the label after production. A band setup is great, but, I think that I would much rather play different styles and genres of music and get paid more to do it.

Anyways, that's what has been going on. A lot of classes, and studying. Never thought I would actually be taking this thing seriously, but here I am. And I like it. I like accomplishing reading a 100-page reading assignemnt for History.

Alright, I am out. Peace!

2006-09-11T18:12:00.000-07:00

I have been surrounding myself with music lately. I am listening to a lot of things I haven't listened to in a while - or ever.

Here's what I've got:
- Alicia Keys
- Sting
- R.E.M.
- Sheryl Crow
- Train

Good stuff!

2006-09-06T22:05:00.000-07:00

Is it just me - or can anyone else not take this product seriously anymore?

The Greatest

2006-09-04T22:07:00.000-07:00

Today was long. I had a lot to do, and I thought a long time to do it. Forgot drums needed to be set up in the chapel for lessons and youth, no biggie....let me show you the way this panned out:

1. Got to GBC at around 3:30 (already an hour late) Tore down drums from Crosspoint.
2. Moved equipment over to chapel at around 4:15 (now about an 1 hour and a half late). Took entirely too long to move stuff and setup...it's still not done!
3. Loaded the car at 4:45 - into Lufkin by 5:25 (had to turn around because I forgot something...like usual).
4. Uloaded and ready to play at 6:00 - recording rig NOT!
5. Recording rig setup with mics and mixer by 6:45. Tweaked levels until 7:45 and then recorded a take or two.
6. Go to setup another take and talk to Todd for a bit. As I am doing that, I had computer issues and lost the first take, which was okay with me. Get ready to knock out three more by 8:45
7. By 10:00, I had done three more takes and was relatively satisfied. Tore down by 10:40 and out the door.
8. Stopped by Todd's to drop off keys, and then went to Taco Bell. Back in Nac by 11:45.

I want to be known for stating this...I have the GREATEST girlfriend in the world. She learned enough about Pro Tools to help me record. In this setup....I can't do it. With the mixer and all, it throw me for a loop and the setup has to be further away. She watched levels and put up with a lot....with a headche and all. I love her dearly! Not just because she did that, but, she puts up with all my musical endeavors. I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful girlfriend to sit there for a painful lenght of time to get nothing in return...but she did, with a smile....except when we lost the first take....but I wasn't smiling either. Love you Angela!!! and THANK YOU!!!!

Alright, I'm off to do some MIDI research. Peace!

Busy-ness

2006-09-02T11:44:00.000-07:00

Back to school again...but, this semester seems exciting. It seems challenging and for some reason, I think I am at a point in my life where I want that. I did drop a Communications class yesterday just because I have three very reading intensive courses and my vision just keep diminishing...but, I am still taking a more full load than I have ever taken in my college career - so that's good. I am still excited. I think I am also narrowing down a major. I am looking at Speech Communications and Journalism with a minor in Public Relations. Ever since I was younger, journalism alwyas stuck out as an interest. People always told me I was great at writing and said I would make a good reporter. Whether that is true or not, I still need to think about. This is the time to decide.

In other news, started teaching drum lessons this week. That is actually a lot of fun. I am learning a lot in the process too - which is fun. I have two students now, but, I would like to branch out into having a few more. It would be a great way to expand my career by doing education work. Also might be recording the demo for David McElvens's country band. I talked to him at church last week and it seems promising.

V-Drums (boo) are going to be back up at church tomorrow. We used acoustic for the last month and we'll be using the acoustic in Crosspoint (which went really well last week). I am supposed to meet Ryan at the church today to set the V-Drums (boo) back up.

Well that's all for now. Peace!

Bits and Pieces

2006-08-29T19:58:00.000-07:00

I ordered the parts for my computer last week with the numerous opprtunities to record jumping my way. I started Todd's stuff last week and just got really excited. So, anyways, I got the monitor today and the rest comes tomorrow.

Figured I would share....

I'm Dealing...

2006-08-20T19:53:00.000-07:00

I've been dealing with something in the last few weeks. It's been a constant struggle...toiling with guilt and wrestling with regret. Today, I decided to deal with it...and I wanted to share with you guys, my faithful readers, my method of dealing.

....I like Journey...OK I said it. I like Steve Perry and the rest of the band...I like it all....and I'm not ashamed now - only about the past. My good friend, John Rolf, was a die-hard Journey fan. I only made fun of him and teased him about it. Here's what I did - for John.

Dear John,
I just wanted you to know that I cannot "Escape" the memories of me harrasing you about your love for Journey, and Steve Perry. You've "Faithfully" followed this band through there many, many, musical endeavors, even Steve's solo career. Now, we've gone our "Seperate Ways" and I have all this guilt about how I berraded you with insults about this matter. I thought "Only the Young" could be so foolish and ignorant about such great music, but, I was sorely mistaken. You "Patiently" endured the verbal whiplash and emotional torrment of my consistant teasing when you sat at the piano and only displayed your love for your favorite band. "Who's Crying Now"? Me...

I missed a chance to share a common musical ground - but, "I'll Be Alright Without You" and your knowledge of the band's history, discography, and performances. Because even though you're gone, you can still share your love for Journey, "Anytime". As long as that "Wheel In the Sky" keeps on turning, your "Message of Love" for Steve Perry, even though he hasn't been there with the band the whole time. And as I embrace Journey's rockin' tunes with "Open Arms", you can rest assured that your influence, and Steve Smith's drum licks, that I am a fully converted follower. You "Opened the Door" man, and I thank you for that - even though I publicly humiliated you for simply loving the band that inspires you.

Again, I am sorry for all that I've done and said to offend you, but I "Believe" we can push past this and mend the bridge. It's "Never Too Late". "Don't Stop Believen'" in Journey man - though the "Lights" may fade, the music may stop, but their sound will live on!

Sincerely,
Timothi J. Romack
PS: I'm missin' your "Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin'"....yes, I had to put that in there...

Woot Are You Up So Late For...?

2006-08-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

My first woot-off!!! woo hoo!

I will back up a bit....what is woot? why am I so excited? Well, woot is a retailer online that displays and sells an item every day at a considerably lower price. They change the item each day at midnight, central time, and they only offer a limited quantity. A lot of the time it is either an electronic item (iPod, camera, etc), a useless item, or something way too pricey. They are also known for the "Bag O' Crap", which is a random item.

What is a woot-off? It is where, instead of one item, they have extremely limited quantities of several items. Here's the catch, they don't display a new item until the one before it runs out. For example, right now it is an air freshner. I don't want that, so I wait until the next item is displayed. They do this until they reach the bottom of the item list (which isn't revealed to the wooters).

Why wait if it is so late? Well, the first item was a video card that I wanted for my new desktop. Then the second item was a hard drive that I also wanted for the new PC. I missed both of them - too late. Well, I was waiting because I know something else of great intrest will shuffle through. Until then...I will be putting together click tracks for recording....which I pushed back until next week.

Anyways, check it out / woot.com

Peace!

Backing Tracks

2006-08-15T21:34:00.000-07:00

New favorite hobby - watching local churches on TV. Why? Because I have nothing better to do. So I am watching this church service that is around this area (sorry if by some off chance you attend the church that I am showcasing here - it is not a bash, just an example), and I am witness to this. Listen to the whole thing, and keep in mind...everything except for lead vocal is a backing track (goofy keyboard strings and vocals too!). I really feel sorry for him, the church is probably pretty big and he probably doens't have a great mix of the CD they stuck him with. Poor guy...

When I say the term "backing tracks", what pops in your heaad? I know that when I think about backing tracks, I think of cheesy church, special music. Now, don't get me wrong, I believe taht people should feel comfortable to do special music, and most churches do this - including my own. I am going to get phone calls from the thousands of readers that I have about how I "badmouthed special music" and how they did special music one time and like fifty people came up after church and told them how amazing it was. NO! I just think we could do better.

The churches that I have been to, the band was at a level where they could perform the music to backup the vocalist that wanted to do music. And if that is not suitbale in your church, surely, there is someone who could play a piano or guitar rendition to fufill the much needed instrumental accompaniment.

Here's my beef with special music. First off, it is a hassle to setup special monitoring situations for the vocalist(s) to hear well enough to keep up with the backing track. Most of the time, monitoring is cruddy, so the special music ends up being somewhat amusing with the vocalist(s) and the backing track being on two different tempos. Secondly, no matter how talented your vocalist(s), the backing track is mastered...meaning, your junky live sound setup is not going to compare to what you're asking your special music person to sing with. It sounds way different. Finally, why does the special music have to sound so cheesy? What I mean is, why do they (the folks who record these wonderful backing tracks) have to pick the most corny keyboard patches and ugliest drum tones? To me, live instruments would sound so much better.

I figured I would share my observations with my readers and see what you all felt. I don't think special music should be stripped from church, but, can we fix it so that special music doesn't make such a drastic jump in the service? It just feels out of place....

Thoughts?

Maybe...

2006-08-14T21:25:00.000-07:00

This evening I got a call on my cell phone. I answered it, and on the other line was a member of the church that I had met about three weeks back. I was introduced to his family after a Sunday AM service. When we met, he had told me about how musically oriented his kids were. Sounded like a great family and really neat kids.

Well, when he called, I instantly remembered who he was. He called to ask if I might be interested in working with his kids on the drums. I always jump at the opportunity to work with kids on drums...it is a learning experience for me to. The kids are 8 and 10. These kids are really cool. They are pretty much educated in music theory. They both play piano and are pretty knowledgable at that. The 8-year-old goes into the room at their house that has a piano and mic and writes his own music. Pretty neat stuff.

I told him I would give him a shout back this week when I get a good weekly schedule down. So, it looks like I might have a little teaching work...which is exciting.

Refuel starts tomorrow. Didn't get my recording stuff in, so, can't do a recording. Also, today, I decided to sell my Roland and my Palm pilot. Scoped some prices on eBay, and it appears if I sell them together, I will have enough to buy my new computer...meaning, recording is going to getg a lot easier. Sweet!

Peace!

It's up!

2006-08-10T17:30:00.000-07:00

Go here for my project blog. It's going to have what I am working on and what's been finished. As of now, all six Jonathan tracks that I did are finished and up. Soon, the whole production process of four of Todd's songs will be up there. Also, maybe the ReFuel stuff.

Maybe another blog later...

Peace!

Still Truckin....

2006-08-08T22:14:00.000-07:00

Got a Jonathan tune mixed today. I am still not so great with EQ, but, this ended up being a bit more difficult of a situation than previously expected. "Because of You" is the first one I chose to mix. Musically it was one of only a hadful that didn't have too many flubs on our part. Tomorrow I should have "We Seek the One", "Heart Beat Song", "Be", and "Missing" all done.

As I promised long ago, I am going to dedicate a blog to my different projects. Soon, I will have a new project for Todd underway. I will blog the whole process. Hopefully I can look back and see how much I have developed. I will post an address for that blog when I set it up.

Today was slow. Nothing to do. Tomorrow I am going to make an excuse to time me and Larry to and from campus. Right now, it's about a 20 min. walk one-way. Hopefully we can clip that a bit.

Peace!

It Begins...

2006-08-07T21:05:00.000-07:00

Today, I decided to start mixing the Jonathan stuff back from July. I have put that off because I didn't really have a deadline to do it...and the show didn't go as well as I had hoped for a live recording. We all had our flubs, but, I wanted something to work with, and that's what I got.

I sat down at about noon, and was rather disappointed at first. I could make anything work, and nothing seemed to be going the way I wanted it to. Let me explain, I don't like reading manuals, tutorials, or watch videos about things. I want to figure it out myself. Pro Tools was no difference. Also know this, I don't claim to do this well. I play drums, and that's all I claim to somewhat grasp.

I began to pull the recording apart. First thing I noticed, the Jennifer stuff at the beginning didn't happen. She used percussion for the majority of it, and the djembe sounded like junk. So, I quickly had to scrap that, which was a shame, because I lost stuff to practice with.

At around 3, I got really frustrated and stopped. Then I freaked out. Why? I told Todd I was going to try and track some things for him this week. I've been talking about this demo CD of my stuff, and need to put it together. So, I began to worry about how I was going to pull this off. I went and got my grub on with a Weight Watcher's Blueberry muffin (which is fannnnn-tastic!) and began to think things over.

At around 5, I went and opened Pro Tools open...this time, things happened! I got a decent mix (about as good as live mixes can get with drums all in one channel)....and it sounded good. Even threw some effects on vocals, guitar, and percussion. My next step is figuring out EQ....the thing I know very little about.

I am feeling much better about doing stuff with Pro Tools now. I am going to be working for the next couple of days to mix this down and get ready for a whole new batch of stuff. Paul (who doesn't have a blog at this time - so no link) is going to let me host some stuff that I've done online when I get it...so, when I find something that I feel could listen to, I'll throw it up there.

Alright, back to work. Peace!

Put in My Place

2006-08-04T22:53:00.000-07:00

This evening, I hung out with Angela. Though it's been something I've done all week, I have really enjoyed helping her get moved in. Although, it will be nice to spend some time at my place, I love seeing her get excited about her apartment.

After eating a late dinner, I got a phone call. It was my friend Joey, and he was wondering if I wanted to come and play som,e music with him. I was a bit hesitant at first, but I will get to that later. I agreed and I went and met him.

We were playing jazz! One genere I just can't play!!!! ARG! It showed too. Joey and Wes are phenominal at jazz, and I am not so much. We played for a good hour and a half to two hours. It was a lot of fun, but, I am now just blown away at how far I still have to go. Then, that got me thinking a few things....

a) It is time to start learning jazz, but even more so, allowing myself to relax behind the kit to be able to let the jazz flow from me. Yes, I went there.

b) I have so far to go. But, that's the point. If I ever stop learning, then I will stop playing. If I know everything, I will never feel like I have accomplished anything. Jazz is going to be imperative for me to learn before I start doing lots of session work. However, I have some great folks to help me learn.

c) Joey is very talented....this dude blew me away. But, he showed me some folks to start listening and when school starts back up, we are all going to meet again and give it another go. Hopefully, I will sound a bit beter.

Anywho, that was my evening. Later 'gents!

Peace!

Never Again...yeah, right!!!

2006-08-03T11:34:00.000-07:00

I never want to move again! It is frustrating, tedious, time consuming, troublesome, irritating, and so many other great words that I would love to throw at you guys. It took roughly four days to move both Angela and myself. She is living by herself, so there wa a bit more furniture to move for her. She's almost totally unpacked and ready to go. I am totally unpacked, but still need to take care of a few little things. All in all, it's done with.

School is about a month away. What am I doing until then? Nothin'! I will be working on routes with Larry so we can do a lot more walking this year, probably assembling together the computer, and working on drum stuff. This summer really ended up not being so busy - which was somewhat disapointing. I was pumped up for a little bit more action than what actually ocurred. I did have a blast with Todd and the guys though. I have actually played more with Todd than what was actually anticipated. We are actually going to get busier this fall, which is very exciting.

Nothing really left to say. Things at my parent's house have settled down. My mom and I are not arguing this move...which is very nice. She's been very accepting of it, and I was actually the one struggling with the change this time around. But, all is well now.

Okay, that's all you get...

Peace!

Commence the Countdown...

2006-07-25T12:47:00.000-07:00

Let me first state, I love my family. They have provided me with so much, and ask for very little. However, I am ready - I repeat, READY - to get back to Nac. This last week has been super-stressful. I have had a lot of things develop at the house, and my parents and siblings are driving me bonkers!

Confronted my oldest brother about some big issues I had. He's been taking part in some very dangerous activities, and has lied to me about this on numerous occasions. I confronted him about: number one - doing what he's doing, and then number two - why he would lie to me for over a year now. He essentially told me that I am dead to him now. What a nice thing to say to your brother. Well, I know that what I did needed to be done. He's throwing away his life....and all I feel like I can do is stand back and watch. Been praying a lot about him lately.

Today has been a bad day at the house. Things are a wreck here. Angela is moving out this week, and believe it or not, my parent's seem to have a problem with her leaving. Because what does it mean when she leaves....? I am moving very shortly after. My mom, understandably, has a hard time when I leave back to school. This time is different - I am not going to be coming home anymore. When she is upset about this, she is a little edgy and often starts arguments. She says that is just how she copes with things. I hope that she understands that we're only like 25 miles away.

The house is a mess. I hate to live in a space that is a total mess....part of the reason I am excited about moving to Nac. Part of the reason, I can't see, so when I put my hand in a sticky spot on the couch, or a wet swimming suit on the chair, it is uncomfortable. Plus, we have food on the counters that is like a week old....GROSS! I don't handle messy houses. I keep my room and dorm - whatever I am in - clean.

Anywho, I have a few things coming up. Very possibly doing REfuel with Todd in mid-August. Have a gig with Mike in early September. I am also about to begin trying to find stuff to record to put together a demo CD. I actually have a few contacts who want to listen. It's pretty exciting!

Peace!

To Wesley (revised)

2006-07-18T08:58:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've brought the Wesley up. It's been a while because I think I needed some time to gather my thoughts and my feelings on the issue and then respond with exactly what I felt rather than post something that was unplanned and could be misunderstood. I posted something yesterday, and it said what I wanted it to, but I don't think I really got to the heart of the matter.I have seen and heard a lot about Wesley lately. Whether it is seeing events on the website, driving past and reading the marquee, seeing folks on campus (or at camp last week)...the fact is, it got me thinking. Why leave such a hostile situation the way it was? I feel like both sides said their peace, and nothing more had to be said. But that leaves things completely screwed up.

The problem with that is, so many great things came from Wesley in the three years I was there. I've been looking back and thinking about that and have really realized just how many things happened and how many wonderful friendships started there.So, where did my mind go from there? Well, I started thinking back to last April. I thought about what was said, how it was delivered, what I meant to happen, what ACTUALLY happened, what I wanted to accomplish, etc etc. So, let me dive a bit deeper into that.

What was said - A lot of things. Many remarks that were made had a few months to maybe even a semester or two, to build up. Some issues were unresolvable. There are many things about the Methodist church that won't be able to be changed. There are things that make up the Methodist church that just won't be changed - and thats ok. We agree on many key points, most importantly, Christ. Some issues I had might have been resolved by me being a bit more open about my concerns.

How it was delivered - In the most unfortunate manner; a text-only, public, easy-to-access (it was linked from my facebook), blog. Tom Teekell and I had many conversations about e-mail discussions and how they don't work. In fact, just a week or so before I quit, Tom had sent an e-mail that I misinterpretted. In fact, during the issues in April, I even commented about an e-mail Tom had sent that I was furious about. His intent was not to make me feel the way I did, but, just by reading the text without facial expressions, tone of voice, and other various elements...I would have never known that. All I knew was that Tom and I were frustrated and I got the e-mail. Lesson learned there....handle confrontations face-to-face. I need to learn to be a little less passive and I think this situation showed me that.

What I intended to happen - Well, first off, not to say I was hiding anything, but, I never intended anyone to read it (except friends who already knew what I felt about the Wesley). I was very neglegant and left a link on my facebook. The fact is, my intent was never to hurt. Even though it did, it was never meant to. People who know me, know I am a loving person. I have grown up alot in the past years and believe that I am a caring individual who is respectful and considerate. That being said, by mentioning Tom Teekell directly was a mistake. I shouldn't have doen that and I take full responsibility for those actions. Plain and simple. On the other hand, I intended not to hurt other people by being general and saying "the Wesley" rather than naming names. In an effort to not be hurtful, I actually hurt more people. To say "the Wesley", I meant the place, not the people. Though, it goes back to my above mentioned point about text-only confrontations....you'd never have known that is what I meant.

What ACTUALLY happened - We all know that answer...feelings were trampelled on. People were hurt. People were angry. People were very frustrated. As we saw, people responded to the post with just as much hurt as I posted. If someone made comments about Crosspoint, I would be just as hurt. I still have not commented to some folks who e-mailed or messaged me since May. It is hard for me to face what happened. It was very unlike me to do what I did.

What I wanted to accomplish - Many things. I wanted to see a change in the way we led the Wesley. I wanted to see people being honest with how they felt. I know I was not the only one who was frustrated. I felt like in order to make big changes, you have to take big risks. Big risks are tough, but, being content is more risky than anything. I wanted to see the students at Wesley impacted everytime they stepped through the door, and not just coming back on Wednesdays just to pay God face time...I wanted it to be life-changing. Let me stop there....I don't mean to say Wesley wasn't doing that...what I meant was....I wanted to be a part of making that even more apparent. Please don't misinterpret that, because I do feel like people have had life-changing experiences at Wesley. I love to see students responding to the Word and I just wanted more of that. By posting, my intent was to vent some frustrations of things I felt I hadn't accomplished and would fail to do so.

It is impossible for me to go back and physically remove that piece of my life (the posting and folks reading it). The best thing for me to do is to realize that the manner in which I vented was inappropriate. I did not love my neighbor as myself...would I have wanted to be on the receiving end of that post...heck no. Even if it wasn't intended in the way it was, it still was interpretted that way by how it was worded. I wanted to apologize for how I acted last semester. I was very unfair to a lot of people. Though I stand by the things I believe very strongly in, I had no right to be so negative towards others who believe differently. I can have a differnet opinion, but, feelings don't need to be disregarded when I share my opinion. I also wanted to further extend that aplogy to my actions, because admist all the posting and whatnot, a few people that worked with me very closely got hurt even more - Hearts Afire. Carl has done a great job to step up and fill a gap that shouldn't have been as large. The team (Jennifer, Coop, Sierra, Meagan, Christine, Khea, Adam, and any others I am forgetting) had no time to adjust, and that's unfair.

So, if you are still reading at this point...where do we go now? I know where I satnd. I believe we are people who have a bond in Christ. I feel like we are responsible for sharing that with others. I believe that we are called to fellowship with each other, not just by going places, but by having biblical fellowship. Though I may not attend a worship service at Wesley on a regular basis, that doesn't mean I don't want to continue the friendship I started at Wesley. I know that I miss and care for a lot of folks at Wesley. I also know that I don't want to walk past Wesley and think of how bad things were. I want to think about how we can work together to "mend the bridge" that was broken last April. You know how to reach me....I would truly love to hear back from everyone. I hope to hear or see you all here soon!

2006-07-17T13:46:00.000-07:00

Played a district camp with Todd and the boys last week. Was a fantastic experience. Has a bucket load of fun, and learned a bunch about things I need to do differently from now on - on and off stage, camp or no camp. We had a great group of kids and a good staf that made it so amazing.

Came home on Thursday, and then played a show with Jonathan on Saturday. Went fine, need to mix the recording from Pro Tools down and share some.

I really haven't been in a blogging mood lately....so, that's all you get. Maybe when I am feeling up to talking about something more than just "I had a great day. I ate a chicken sandwich and drank an iced tea", then I'll post it.

Just an Update

2006-06-23T12:09:00.000-07:00

Been a good week. Many many blessings in my life and Angela's. Hopefully as everything pans out, I'll share everything. One great thing, the car is back - and not sick anymore. It's been running great.

Practice on Wednesday went really well. Ran the loop like Id hope to, not in the "way" I wanted to (loop + click / seperate tracks)...but, I cranked the loop in my ears so that I could stay on tempo. Set was very very good....great blend of songs. We're doing "Glorify" and what's cool about that song is that everytime I play it, I remember just how much I like it. The team does a great job with it, and that's always good. It is cool hearing the little lead part on piano. Very excited about Sunday AM stuff...

Well, maybe more later....
Peace!

Busy Again

2006-06-21T14:41:00.001-07:00

Getting busy with Reason work again. Ryan is possibly doing "All Praise and Honor" this week and I had to dig up the loop I had built back last winter. I sequenced it so that I could just hit play and go...so hopefully it turns out alright. It's pretty exciting that I may use a loop in the AM service...haven't done that before.

Things are getting crazy around the house. We're planning for Nick to come home and visit, so that's kinda' hectic. Also, planning all the out of town trips my paren'ts are making. Plus, I am in the process of trying to finish getting dates set for some of the stuff Jonathan and I talked about in May. Got a few emails I am sending out this afternoon and tomorrow to try to get all that lined up.

Don't know who all knew, but Angela's car looked like it may be in for a whirlwind of problems. The Ford place gave us the run around for about a week and a half, but we have the car back with a new transmission and hopefully no more problems. We got it covered under warranty, so that saved a bunch of money. Thank God!

Alright, I am off to finish packing for practice. Hope the loop stuff works.

Peace!

Busy Again

2006-06-21T14:41:00.000-07:00

A Fork in the Road

2006-06-20T12:37:00.000-07:00

Road #1: Sanger gig with Jonathan. Really exciting opportunity because playing Jonathan's stuff was a blast last time! It's an out of town gig - which is always fun. I need the experience...and always will. It's a good chance to have some great fellowship with some great friends. Hey, and it's Robert's church...need I say more?

Road #2: My commitment to my church and the praise team of being there and leading the people there in worship. Always an important commitment. Ryan doesn't really have a lot of options for drummers, and though this would be a great chance for him to use Mike or Josh, is it opportune?

The situation: Jonathan called Saturday and reminded me the Sanger gig was this Sunday. Shoot! I thought it was on a Saturday! That threw me off a bit, but I called him back and let him know that even though they were leaving on Saturday, I would still be able to come down on Sunday. I got a call back yesterday evening and he let me know that he would really rather use the same guy for the Sunday AM stuff - understandably. I didn't know they were doing stuff in the AM service. So that's where the tough decision came from...

What I ended up doing: I called Jonathan and let him know, even though I really enjoy playing with him (and the band for that matter), that my commitment to my church is very important. That my church has been so good to me, and I cannot miss another Sunday. I missed almost the entire month of May due to being sick and gigs. I let him know that I really don't want this to exclude me from further stuff...and I don't think it will. But, I think that keeping my word to the church is pretty important. Ryan would have a tough time having one evening to find someone, whereas Jonathan has a couple of ideas already to replace me.

Anyone who knows me, knows I have a problem with saying "no" to folks. Why? I love playing. Plain and simple. I don't turn down opportunities very often because it is a blast no matter who I am playing with. It's one thing I am good at and enjoy, and I think that is really important. Turning down an out-of-town gig is even a bigger deal because I don't get very many of those either. But, I think that I made the right decision.

Why the heck am I telling you guys this...because I want you all to know just how important my church is to me. My church is incredible - we have a great staff and great people and I don't want to create tension by turning my back and going and travelling all the time. Anyways, that's what's going on right now. A very tough deciosn I must say, but, I am glad it is resolved and it sounds like Jonathan has it figured out as far as how to handle getting a different drummer - which makes me feel a lot better.

Peace!

Same Ol' Same Ol'

2006-06-13T00:31:00.000-07:00

Just posting to post. Really nothing exciting. Been a bit stressed over my (and Angela's) financial situation for next semester and the ones to come. Other than that nothing. Hoping to get busy, like really soon. Maybe doing drums for a song or two next week. Peace.

Monday Update

2006-06-05T21:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a breeze of a day. Was planning on waking up early again and walking (yesterday I woke up @ 4:45AM to walk)...but, decided I need a little more sleep. Woke up later than I wanted to and had a subconscious chat with Todd on the phone. Actually - he asked if Blake Stewart could use my drums and what not for .5ive this week. I will be attending praise team practice with Ryan and the team this week. I am very excited about that.

Went and took Mandi to the vet. She's healthy, maybe a bit too skinny, but a very healthy pup. It was pretty exciting, she learned the "sit" command today - very exciting moment. It is cool watching Angela train her because being a lab/border collie mix, she picks things up really quick. We've been doing a lot of walking lately, twice a day, around the neighborhood.

This evening, I called SoundTechs to go pick up some sticks (left my stick bag in Nac), and it turns out they were out of the kind I use. Mark Saldana and I are the only two that I know of that use these sticks, so he must have just bought a few. So, since I am recording tomorrow, we went to go get my sticks and mics.

That's pretty much my day. I am sitting here watching "King of Queens" and about to head to sleep.

Little re-cap on Ryan's first Sunday at church. Set was really good:

Forever
Arise w/transition
All Hail the Power transitioned into...
Here I Am to Worship
joys and concerns
Open the Eyes of My Heart
Jesus Paid it All (newer version) transitioned into
How Great is Our God (chorus/How Great Thou Art/chorus)

Very very cool set. It sounded fantastic! It was one of those that went well in both services. Did some work on tthe V-Drums and they felt alot better to play on. I think we're going to have to replace our hi-hat trigger due to our other drummers' heavy hitting style. Continuing to play on them isn't helping them, but, what else can you do? Like I said, I will be practicing with the team (which due to .5ive hasn't been happening). I will keep you guys updated.

Anyways, we'll be recording "Part of Your Story" tomorrow. Let you know how it goes. Later...

Inadequate (pt. 2)

2006-06-01T21:26:00.000-07:00

I went back and read what I wrote last night. Thinking about everything I said....and I noticed I left out the other part of what I felt.

I have evaluated everything I have done to this point, and everything aide, I have accomplished alot. I HAVE been feeling like a man who is inadequate of some things, but fully capable in areas that many people aren't. Though I have things I can't do....loook, I can play the drums, I can do just about anything with computers (except web design), I can make people laugh (they always say they're laughing with me - not at me...), and I have a great group of friends who take care of me when I can't do something that requires my vision.

Am I OK with that? Of course!!!

Thanks for your support. I wasn't depressed, or upset, just reflecting. Thanks for allowing me to share that with you.

Inadequate

2006-05-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

Man, been losing vision like crazy. Really don't know why, just been really REALLY fuzzy. In fact, like, almost blind fuzzy! It has been leaving me really frustrated about life in general and not being able to do simple tasks around the house. I have had the word "inadequate" stuck in my head for the last four or five days because I have thought about how many things I can't do.

For example, I can't be the type of boyfriend who takes his girlfriend on nice country drives, or any drives for that matter. I can't really work in any field that involves vision (fun careers like aviation, law enforcement, etc - hey, they're exciting!). I can't really see the faces of folks I love and care for. I can't read a book or magazine at the check out counter. I really can't go enjoy a sporting event, play, or movie like most people do. And as I sit here and type out this list, and almost drive myself into a pity-fest....I grow giddy at the thought about Heaven.

Todd asked me once, "Do you get excited about the thought of standing before the Father in Heaven and seeing perfectly?". My answer has always been, "Well, I can't imagine anything else...", meaning, it doesn't bother me. Throughout the last couple of days, however, my thought process has changed on this subject. I am truly giddy at the thought of going to Heaven and being able to see clearly! I can't wait!!!! I long for the day I can see the simplest things like the birds and trees...heck, even the people who love and care about me, those who smile when I say something funny (like I ever do), and even see this text on this computer screen without a screen magnifier. Think of all the things I coudl do better...

Or would they be better? Something I have had to accept today was that in all my IN-adequacies, God comes and fufills those. My flaws and perfected in Him. No matter the circumstance I know that He has reason and purpose in that. I think my vision has kept me from things that society tempts us with.

So, "inadequate" is just a cop-out (is that the right way to spell that?). I am the way my Father created me, for the reason He created me. I need to remember when Satan tempts me with thoughts of being incompetant or inadequate, I have a Father who completes me. And though it's hard, He has a place for me in Heaven where I can roam those streets of gold with perfect sight and just gaze at His splendor! Dang, I am excited!!!!

Strange Times

2006-05-29T18:48:00.000-07:00

Been some strange times around here. My brother has officially headed the way of Washington. I thought it might be somewhat of a stress reliever for the family because Nick has been really troubling and causing lots of stress at the house. I am actually really sad he's gone though. It's been really hard on my mom. She's been really mopey and not really aware of how we are walking on pines and needles around her. It's pretty frustrating and sad at the same time.

Heard some interesting news from the church: Michael Dennis is leaving the church to work in (Austin?). That's exciting, pretty neat that he has that opportunitiy. It's sad because it's another spot to fill, however, God has been so faithful in providing a guy to fill our empty Music Pastor position and He has blessed the church with a greatg guy for the job. So, hopefully we will see some great prospects for college pastors.

Drumminghas been nuts lately. I need to start practicing more. Things have not been clicking the way they need to be, and I feel like I am falling behind. I am going to hopefully have some time to practice soon. Going back to Nac will help that.

AS far as recording is going, no tracks done for "Part of Your Story". Was supposed to start building tracks for "You've Changed" (Todd's new song he wrote for graduation - yes, senior graduation). It's really cool, and I hope to have something that will sound good. Try to keep you updated on that process.

Well, hope things get interesting so that I can give you something great to read....

Worshipping another...

2006-05-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

Graduation time again....and I remember why I disliked this period of my life. It seems as though pretty much anyone and everyone that has ever come in contact with me had their eyes' on me. Alright, alright....we aren't worshipping the seniors literally - but everything we are doing is somewhat suspicious of that. We hold Senior Sunday church services for pete's sake! Banquets, ceremonies, parties - what are we doing?!?! I have been thinking about this quite a bit today, since I was not a fan of all the adoration when I was a senior. What does this do to our students? Does it add any unecessary stress to their already changing lives'?

Just a tidbit of what I have been thinking about today. I have more, but really, I won't dive into it. Some aspects of the public education system frustrate me, and it has really opened my eyes to the future of my children. I realize, my cousin Tracy is a teacher....however, I said some aspects of the system. She's overworked and underpaid and it's sad that we don't pay more attention to educators who have invested time and effort in to children who have sometimes been deemed "hopeless" and additions to our state's already higher than typical dropout rates.

ANYWAYS!!!! Boring day yet again. I am going to start on a new music project tomorrow...mainly to keep myself busy. I need to start writing again...and I think I need to start being creative to get back in the game. I am going to start coming up with some instrumentals (hopefully) and build from there. Tomorrow is also .5ive. Set looks good..should be a good one.

My brother is ending up possibly getting to graduate. He failed government, like I mentioned, however, the school is allowing him to go and take the class again (in two days) in the means of a few tests and then he can get his diploma and walk. I am happy for him. I will continue to pray for him, because he is dead set on Washington. If that's where he's going, God's going to be there too! It may not be the smartest decision for him, but, in life, it's all about your decisions.

Well, I am off. I am listening to a bunch of new music. Blake stole my thunder about the new Ashley Parker Angel record. Whether he was being serious or not, I am listening to it. I watched the show and thought it was cool how the record came together. Production quality is good, typical pop I think - but not always bad. Also listening to the Amos Lee stuff that I saw on Austin City Limits. Dude is freakin' amazing!!!!

Alright, I am out...

Where's the Wi-Fi?

2006-05-22T22:25:00.000-07:00

Been on a hunt for some wi-fi around Lufkin. So, we don't have high-speed internet at the house. We have dial-up. My parent's aren't big fans of the internet, therefore, it's not a priority. Angela and I decided to go to Whataburger and use their internet....but, we always buy something so that it is not as bad as it sounds. So, after searching around, we found out...the one on Timberland has a stronger connection. Also, LaQuinta has wi-fi. Just if you wanted to know...

It's been a slow day. Nothing big. Cleaned the house some, watched some television, and played some video games. Ready to start doing some summer gigs....really missing playing as much. In the next week or so, Todd and Jenkins are going to start tracking some songs ("Part of Your Story", "You Gave Sight", "Glorify", etc). I hopefully will get to lay down some drums here pretty soon. I am hoping the youth band (FUMC's) will pull through and get ready to start laying down some tracks with me here pretty soon. Also, Jonathan is getting booked some - so hopefully that will pan out. Just ready to start playing some, it's getting hard to find opportunities to play.

Well, that's it guys....one thing though....be praying for my brother. He didn't pass his government class, therefore, he doesn't get to graduate. It's tough because he is in this phase where he truly is making loads of wrong decisions and he needs prayer. He's not a believer, so it's difficult for him to see that now. My mom is strssing too, obviously, and I don't know how strong their faith is (sadly), so I hope that they will find peace in the Spirit. Please pray!

My Weekend

2006-05-21T21:47:00.000-07:00

Very original title - I know... So, the concert went really well. Wish I had pictures, but, maybe soon you will get to see us play live anyways, so you won't need pictures. Jennifer and Natalie did really well also (as did their band). I will say this: it's different playing for an artist rather than playing for a band. When playing for (backing up an artist), you cannot overstep your creative boundaries - to an extent. I tried to keep as far out of the way as possible, rather than put myself at the forefront. It actually is more difficult than you'd think. But, fun!

Saturday was pretty busy. Had a lot to move around, cleaned up the house a bit, and watched a movie. Angela and I have been watching a lot of scary movies lately. We watched "Saw" the other day and I nearly couldn't sleep that night...yes, I am a woman when it comes to scary movies. Towards the end of the evening, got really sick to my stomach and hoped to wake up to a better day. I have been really congested for about two days.

Woke up feeling like junk. I showered, got dressed, and then just totally decided to not head to Nac. I felt like at any given second the contents of my stomach would be revealed. Ewww! Unlike Blake, I wouldn't have taken a picture though (yup, that would not be good). Hung out around the house all day, took it easy. I am feeling better, have taken some medicine and hopefully will be a lot better by Monday or Tuesday.

Alright, I'm done...

Been Busy

2006-05-14T12:50:00.000-07:00

Practiced with Jon on Friday. Went OK, felt like the band wasn't playing our best....I have had a long week, so it doesn't suprise me that I wasn't on. I expect a better practice this afternoon.

Well, my grandmother (my dad's mom), is having some work done on her heart. The plan was to leave this morning and get to Dallas and be with her for a bit and then turn right around....didn't happen. We woke up and decided it was a bit too rainy to travel. They left, I stayed since I have band practice this afternoon. Went to FUMC Lufkin though...service was different. Thought Mark (drummer) was off a bit, not himself. It seemed to affect the overall sound, just a bit, not bad though. They did "I Will Boast' off the new Baloche record, sounded good. That's a tough song! Sermon was not great....not to be a Debbie Downer, but it was not what I was hoping for. Mike is a nice guy though, and I am sure a good guy to work with. One thing I did find impressive, a little girl, maybe about eight....came up to me in the middle of the service and sign me in as a guest on the registration pad. I went up to her mother after the service and told her I thought it was the sweetest thing, and she said it was all her daughters' idea. Very cool! A great statement for the people of that church.

Set up at HHBC after church...pretty cool setup there....may take a pic or two. Later...

Interesting

2006-05-12T11:33:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I've ever talked much about Jared Anerson. He is a worship leader from Colorado who is a part of the Desperation confrence. Pretty cool stuff....definately check him out. You may have heard some of his stuff on the radio ("Amazed", "Beauty of the Lord", "Rescue"). Some very good tunes. I like his music for a few reasons...very well written, beautiful instrumentation, great practical arrangements, and he writes songs that can easily be used in worship.

Well, a few weeks ago when the Nashville stuff came about, I stumbled onto his MySpace site. Unlike most artists on MySpace, he actually maintains his own, blog and everything. So, I figured I would drop him a line and see what sort of information and advice he might have. Not expecting much back, I received an email from him last night:

i would say, finish your degree. serve in your church, keep doing what your doing. always play to a click (metronome). study drums like crazy. study music in general (bass lines and patterns, chord theory, basic recording and production). get a simple recording software and dive in. make tracks to songs that already exist. write songs. nobody makes on just one skill. you have to be decent at several things.

always try to play with people that are better than you are. find musicians you respect in your area and become friends. be the best at what you do. invest in people around you. become a great man, not just a great musician. most great musicians that i know are great people aside from their music.

you never want to try and jump into shoes you're not big enough to fill. like proverbs says, it's better to choose a seat at the end of the table and be called up to the seat of honor, than the other way around.

Pretty cool advice...not unlike most of my friends said on here. I find it cool that I am already on that path he mentioned...you know, absorbing and learning more.

So what does this mean....not much. All my friends have said this same thing, but I was impressed that Jared said that same thing, and seemed very eager to help. I have decided I am not going to transfer to Belmont at least until I get a degree at SFA. Why? Because I need to learn more, grow more, be more, before I make a jump into that. I have wanted to improve my songwriting for a while, but maybe it's the perfect time to pick that up, mix up some music theory, and begin writing again. Maybe working with Jonathan and possibly have somebody to write with would help.

I am taking an electronic music class (AGAIN) next semester, and may try to see if I can learn some more theory in there....probably will see if the school offers some more. Also, Graham Tyson from FUMC in Lufkin has been writing a bit and maybe recording some of his stuff will help me grow some more.

I never want to reach a point where I'm not growing though....I want to always know more, and not just about drums, but music and life in general. I am reaching this point where I have decided that to be successful in the music industry, you have to be talented in many areas, and be respected in what you do. I feel I am reaching that....reaching a point where people respect me as a musician, but as a person too. I need to continue to grow msuically, but also spiritually. Go further and deeper into the Word, closer to Christ, learn and grow in Him.

Wow, isn't that cool how it all goes back to the Creator....everything is centered in Him, no matter how big or small...it always goes back to where it came from? I know this, but maybe I am just now opening my eyes to that.

Anways, check out Jared Anderson. Purchase the "From the Rooftops" CD by Desperation. He wrote a good majority of the songs on that record. Pick it up, you won't regret it.

My Life Right Now

2006-05-11T17:50:00.000-07:00

Been really busy....not much time to blog. School has been rough, finally done with finals. I have done alright....got a "D" in a class this semester, not pleased with that...but my Political Science class that I thought was not going to be well, I got a 77 in...so that's wonderful!

Moved home, moved in, and settled. Very cool! It is nice to be moved in and very comfortable.

Start practices with Jonathan tomorrow....STINKIN' EXCITED!!!! We'll be playing .5ive and Jonathan has the concert to kick-off his summer tour. I am really pumped, it's going to be a blast.

Also, may have some folks to start recording and mixing a bit this summer. I need to use this ProTools rig....

Have some other stuff to talk about, but will post when I get a few more mintues. Just want to let you know I am alive. Later...

Ok, Ok...

2006-05-04T22:19:00.000-07:00

...so the last post wasn't that funny to you guys. Sorry, the fact a dude snaps a picture and tells the story that a guy was relieving himself in the creek is somewhat amusing to me. Why take a picture at all!!!! Enough, enough...

Today was a pretty laid back day. I helped Brad move some stuff into Lufkin and helped him settle in a bit. I am such a good friend....I guess. Angela has a job for the summer! She's working at the Christian Life Center (where we both used to work a few years ago)! It's a good job, great staff, and convient hours. I am hoping to go talk to Mark, her boss, and see if he'll hire me also. Be praying...with all the summer travelling I may be doing with bands, it would be awesome to have a little bit of money to help maintain equipment, help cover travelling, and have some to save for next fall.

Ya know, I wish I had more, but I don't. I go to my last official class day tomorrow...have to take Larry to the vet before that (he's been really sick).

Later...

Tee-Hee, Chuckle-Chuckle

2006-05-01T23:30:00.000-07:00

Thought this would brighten someone's day - it did mine!

Click here and see what I am talking about.

Belmont

2006-04-27T15:43:00.000-07:00

I have had some interesting things to think about in the last few days. I don't know if I mentioned this (too lazy to go back and look)....but the thought of going and attending Belmont in Nashville has been brought up to me. Todd and Jason (and now myself), think that I stand a chance to being accepted into the school. Belmont is a school that has birthed (what a fantastic word) several artists' music careers'. It is, of course, in Nashville where I'd love to move to and start my career as a musician. Also, I know several folks (including Jonathan and Forrest) who have learned so much about the music industry and their abilities since they attended Belmont. Here's some questions I am thinking through right now, and I want the advice of my family and friends. So much to think about and so many things I have to do beforehand:

1. Is there a point in a person's college career that a decision of changing schools and career paths is too late? Meaning, at this point (with three years of school), is it too late to make this change? If I go, I will be in school for probably six years. Here's the flip side, as a Belmont graduate, I would have opportunities and connections that I wouldn't have otherwise.

2. I need to boost my GPA some before applying, would it be best for me to take some summer school classes at Angelina or SFA (not which one, but should I do it at all?)?

3. How shoudl I approach this situation? Should I begin applying now and not do another semester at SFA? Should I take a year off of school and attend AC (while working and saving money)?

4. What will Belmont offer that SFA (or anywhere else) can't?

5. What does this mean for my relationship with Angela? What does it mean for us?

If you're reading this, please respond. Your opinions mean alot to me. I will keep you update of the process and let you know something when I do. As of now, I have contacted admissions and found out my GPA needs to be a little bit higher. I wonder if I did a semester or two at AC if that would look a bit better. Also, in order to enroll in the Music Business program, they want to see that I can do math (meaning a few math courses). I will be taking an algebra class this summer (just to help), but I am not sure what happens after that. Jonathan told me that if I went to Belmont and did Music performance for my major, I woudl have a primary instrument (drums) and a secondary (which I would chose and be taught there). Maybe piano? Maybe guitar?

Just some stuff I am doing right now. Oh yeah, have a couple gigs with Jonathan lined up right now. One at Harmony Hill and one at FUMC in Lufkin. I am really excited to see how he's grown as a vocalist and an instrumentalist. Wel, later...

Maryland, Virginia?

2006-04-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

Here's some pictures in no particular order. I will have some more (and better ones) tonight or tomorrow. Things have been really great. Band sounds good, it's a little different. I am more impressed with the way things sound in the room. We play the big set this evening and then church in the morning and evening. Hopefully I will hav a bit more time to update later on this evening.

A cool picture of the bass

The set (a good one at that)

Robert (one of the coolest and best percuissionists out there)

Forrest is doin' his thing

The therme is "Epic". These are some of the things that are up on the stage

Gave Todd the camera for some pictures...Me on drums, of course

The movie poster they made for the weekend. Pretty cool!

Jason's kitchen. Their house is pretty cool.

My home away from home. The basement.

A Tough One...

2006-04-18T21:02:00.000-07:00

Been a tough day...I think my readership like tripled in like an hour. Some Wesleyans found my blog and of course what have I discussed alot lately....see the issue. I thought about this scenario when I wrote it. Here's why I posted it initially:

1. I feel very firm in my beliefs and my calling to Grace Bible.
2. The truth is so important and stating the truth about how I feel with my friends is very crucial.
3. I am not a very open person and talking on a blog is so much more open for me.

I was not afraid to post my thoughts, nor did I really care that someone may find them. I said some things that were pretty bold, and pretty gutsey. I said some things that struck home at alot of folks . I said somethings I believe led up to my leaving Wesley. I will say one thing....I don't take back anything I said. I merely desire to refine my statements so that maybe some hurt feelings can be mended a bit. I want to say I am not sorry for the way I believe and how I feel and what I said. BUT, I do want to clarify so that people may udnerstand abit.

First off, I want to get one thing out of the way. I am equally hurt. I am hurt that I have to post this because I feel like people should know me better. I feel those who are hurt should know I am not a hateful person and usually what I say is not mean or damaging. I feel like the time I spent and the friendships I had would've hspoken for taht quality about me. Also, when I refer to Wesley, I don't mean everyone. I just don't want to mention alot of names.

I want to first refer to the algebra equation analogy. First off, I said that when you take God out of the equation...it just doesn't work. I didn't mean God doesn't exist at Wesley. There's about eleventy-billion things wrong with that statement. I meant, that alot of ministries and events are not completely God-centered. I am equally guilty of this. I was a part of that. I still sometimes look at numbers. We are human and are flawed in our ways, and this happens everywhere. My intent was not to say Wesley didn't have God...but I felt like sometimes we weren't satisfied until we filled up the entire seating area at worship, or we planned things "just to see how many folks show up". Remember, I admit to being just as guilty of that as I claim Wesley to be.

Secondly, I never once said "my church is better than Wesley". I want to state that Wesley (and the Methodist church for that matter) offers something Grace Bible doesn't as much, and that's alot of networking and connection between people. I don't want to use the word community because that makes me think that the people don't interact much, and they do! However, Todd Wright mentioned that the Methodist church is all connected. I find that very true. No church is better than another. Carl Hanke emailed me and he was so correct in saying that "there only differences in portions of theology". I was a firm believer about 5 months ago that denominations don't matter...but folks, I have learned they really do sometimes. But not for petty reason like I used to hear when I was younger, like age and whatnot. If I have some big theological issues with a ministry, I cannot worship with them. That's why I made my decision to stop worshipping at Wesley. It wasn't out of hate or rage, merely a difference in theology. I am finally reaching apoint in my life where I think I am finding out how I believe. I feel like Grace Bible is conducive to that.

Thirdly, my intent was not to tear Wesley apart. I don't care to do that. Wesley offers so many things to people that they respond to. Look, Wesley must offer something pretty special if so many people communicated to me today. I am not a mean person, and I don't want to sway people into the way I think. I want to spread the Gospel, but it's up to the person and their relationsihp with Christ about how they respond to it. I don't want anyone to think my goal was to destroy Wesley or have people leave, I just don't operate that way.

Finally, my goal was to never leave completely. I didn't want to continue attending the worship opportunities, but, I wanted to still maintain my friendships. I feel like with people misinterpretting my words, friendships have been damaged. Look folks, the internet can be an awful thing. It has blown so much out of proportion here. I wanted to still be able to drop by and say hello, or come and hang out and be with folks there. Now, the way I feel is that I have to rush past the building when I am walking because I don't want to get in a confrontation. I have had some amazing friendships blossom from the Wesley and I hate to see those disappear.

Some things to think about: Folks have asked me to speak with them abot why I left. I don't want to argue at all. I have, in the past, worried about bringing up honestly about how I felt because an argument would escalate. I don't have to defend my beliefs, and I know you can relate to me on that. Sometimes words get jumbled and it's very nerve-racking. I would be glad to talk to anyone about what happened and why I chose not to come to Wesley, but understand, it may not be what you want to hear. Understand that it could be something you did, and understand I have already forgiven you for it. Also, please take this into consideration, I am plugged into a ministry I am completely and utterly content with. I am so satisfied with where God has placed me. Please know that there are folks that have left Wesley that aren't going anywhere, and even some that hop from place to place. Please focus on them, too!

One last thing, I truly felt called to fully commit to Grace Bible. This has been a process that has happened over a year now. It first started when God told me to start attending the morning service. I was perfectly comfortable at FUMC in Lufkin and loved leading worship with Todd and the band. God told me that He wanted me in Nac...and then opened doors for me to serve there. Crosspoint was the final piece to that commitment.

I hope this helps some of you understand why I have done things the way I did. If you have further questions, you know how to reach me. I am out of town (in Maryland with Todd) as of Thursday, but will have the phone with me. Please don't hesitate to call me. I have been very open with all that have asked since day one and will continue to be. As always, I continue to pray for Wesley.

Dallas and Beyond...

2006-04-17T22:16:00.000-07:00

Left to go to a doctor's appointment in Dallas today. We left at 10, got there about 1. It was a nice ride there, very sunny outside....very hot too! The kinda day you wish you could find an excuse to be outside for a little while and then run inside to the air conditoining.

Went to Guitar Center first (needed some little stuff for Maryland). I found a new stick bag and a pair of brushes (like the jazz kind....really like the sound they give off). Met a sales representative in there that I may continue to turn to with drum questions. A good guy who seemed very sincere in his interest in my drumming. The stuff was significantly cheaper than online or SoundTechs in Lufkin....wonder where I will be going from now on.

We needed to burn some time, so we went to some other shops for a bit and then headed to the doctor. We showed up a bit early, which didn't help any. The doctor gave me a good overall report....however, I am having a laser procedure in a few weeks to, hopefully, eliminate some scar tissue that is trying to form again. Not a big deal, outpatient and probably will only be there for an hour or so.

While we were at the doctor's office, I thought about a cymbal I saw at Guitar Center. It's a really nice one, but comes with an equally large price tag. I have been spending some bucks lately on stupid stuff that I really don't need, which I have been trying to be better about. I thought about what this cymbal adds to my sound (used it last week with Todd). I added so much and think is the last addition I need to the cymbal setup I am using. I thought about it and decided to sell an older cymbal that was in Angela's car. We went back and began trading it in and guess what.......the power went out! Like, it was pitch dark for about 30 seconds and people were going nuts. The sales reps. had to escort folks outside and it was crazy. And of course, they had my cymbal so I couldn't leave.

Power finally came back on and I finished the deal. Money will be fine because I hopefully am receiving a rebate on a gift I bought for Christmas (should receive that by the end of April). Now the set is complete! It's cool because as my ability has progressed, it seems my sound has changed. I think my musical sound has truly matured in to something much more!

Anyways, the ride back was long. We were both tired...but Angela was a trooper. About six hours of driving will drain you and she didn't complain at all. She's truly a blessing and a wonderful girlfriend for driving me there. Well, later....

OH, by the way....GOING TO MARYLAND ON THURSDAY! Should be great....I am so pumped about it! And another gig date...May 19th @ Harmony Hill w/Jonathan Martin. Not sure on details but be looking so you can show up and support this guy!

Happy Easter....ALLLLLLRIGHT!

2006-04-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

Gigadee gigadee! It's been a weird Easter. One of those where you almost lose track of time. I laid around all day just doing nothing. It really has been an uneventful day.

Round 2 of church went well. We had some slip ups, still....but, I think the way things are going to work out here pretty soon is we're going to plan a few weeks ahead in sets and then make out notes for the arrangement and plan it out so that the vocalists can know where we're going. I love it when you don't have to have that much structure with arrangement, however, it is that way it will be until someone is hired for the position.

Well, off to Dallas tomorrow. Maybe I didn't post this, but I didn't go to the doctor the other day. Somewhere in between my brother "skipping" school and my mother being emotionally distrot, we ended up rescheduling. Oh well....now Angela and I are going to go. It should be fun. Later...

Easter Sunday AM - Round 1

2006-04-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

You know, the church really should title our services....the 8:30am service should literally be titled "Round:1" and then something else catchy for the second service. Not Round:2 either!

I didn't practice with the team this week. The only practice I had was wth Christie Cook for one song. There was some special music which helped. We had a reasonably good set....Grey came in a measure late a couple of times on "Holy is the Lord". Band kept up well though. It good to be on our toes! We did "Hosanna" without the loop. They practiced without it, and we didn't have time to run it this morning. We may try it the second service. We are meeting up there again @ 10 after ROUND:1.

Had a great weekend, so far, I still have three days of freedom before one day of class and then another week off. I bombed a math test. I don't know if I shared that piece of info. Yup, a 43 honestly doesn't help me in that clas. Luckily, he drops the lowest test grade....so.....that'll be good.

alright, I need to stop gabbing and head to church. Later...

.5ive and Brother

2006-04-13T00:15:00.000-07:00

Played .5ive with the Todd and Some of His Buddies band this evening....went fantastically well. Simpler is so much better for drummers. I tried with no splashes, and 2 toms and it sounded great! Enough about the drums....Todd has a new song. It is freakin' awesome! I wish he'd get a CD out so you all could hear how great this guy is. He's truly been blessed with an amazing ability to lead others and to write songs that glorify the Father. Maybe he'll post some...

Got an interesting opportunity this evening. I left Larry's food in Nac, and won't be going back until Friday. Poor guy! Nick ended up taking me back to Nac and grabbing his food. Let me share some background; Nick and I don't talk much anymore. There's been family issues....I can't say what, but they exist. Our relationship took a hit because of that, sadly. Well, on the way back from Nac....I felt something tugging on my heart, something saying, "go and share". Well, I started talking about the issues, and relating them to Christ, and how no matter how bad things are, they are in His control and not our own. I was nervous, but I started to introduce him to the Gospel and started to share what His Word has instore for our lives. Ya know, I didn't talk much....I felt like right now the worst thing I can do is bombard him. However, I did tell him I wanted to get him a Bible....so I need to start looking. Part of his graduation present I suppose.

Plain and simple....my family is so lost. I can say that....I know for a certain. I think they believe in something, but they don't know what. I want them to see what I see, so badly....I would do anything to share it with them. They just don't make it easy to share that. Tonight my mother started talking about somebody that we both know that she thinks is a bit odd. I think this person is a strange person, true, but....they do amazing work for the Kingdom. They'll find Him, I just know it...please be praying. I need strength to be courageous and share the Word with them.

Heading to Dallas tomorrow for an eye appointment. No big deal, hopefully. Later...

Much Better!

2006-04-10T21:33:00.000-07:00

Today had a bad start, but wrapped up nicely. So, I stayed up rather late last night "studying" for a math test. In reality, I stared at the pages for a bit trying to talk myself INTO studying. It didn't happen. I woke up late and missed my Political Science class.....whoops!

Went to take my test, and failed it....well, let me clarify....I left half of the questions blank, so I may have aced what I did answer. It's going to be alirght becasue he'll drop that grade with my final test grade....assuming I answer more than half of those questions.

Headed home, only to find out more Wesley interaction. No biggie...."block and delete" works fantastically. I did some work on loops that needed to be taken care of and listened to some I had worked on back in the day.....yesterday that is. No seriously, like last year. It is cool seeing the progress and listening to them . They're okay, but not as good. I still have some more to learn, but the day I don't have anything else to learn is the day I stop playing and making music.

Went to a band rehersal with Christy Cook (a folk guitarist from the church), Kurt (the coolest bass player), and Sherri (a woman who does BGVs for the church). We were rehearsing a song Christy is leading for our Easter service. Was a bit weary about this, simply because, stylistically its way different from what I usually play. Kurt and I picked it up very quickly, and it seemed like she trusted us. She kept makig little arrangment and musical changes. Straight up....that song was tough. The arrangement is not your typical song pattern. She (Christy) is in the process of recording and she made the comment to me (when I continued to get what she said and wanted), "We should have hired you to do drums for the record.". Dang, where was I when she started, I would've done it?!?

As we wrapped up, Kurt and I were just chatting. I was making conversation with him about session work, and she (Christy) overheard me. She asked, "are you intrested in doing some studio session work?" I told her that I was very interested and passionate about it. She then said, "Well, Jimmy, the guy who I recorded my record with owns a studio here, and has heard you're good. I am pretty sure he'll be able to find you some work. Would you want me to set that up?" I was very excited and said, "Absolutely!" She then mentioned she's looking for a band to back her up, and asked Kurt and myself if we might be interested. Though it is a different style, Ineed to immerse myself in all genres if I am going to be a successful session drummer. We told her that we could do it. She may book s with some gigs, which would be cool.

So I should be hearing something about some possible session work in the next month. It would be cool to work on something. I am just so thankful that God is so faithful. His love is so great and unrelenting. He's opened so many doors for my drumming. Look, possibly playing with Jonathan, Chad, playing alot with Todd, and churches that I play things for. It's so amazing to be a part of all these things. I feel tremendously blessed!

Anyways, figured that would make up for the harsh Wesley post. Hope to continue to have days like these. Later....

Wesley (a.k.a the United Methodist HIGH SCHOOL Ministry)

2006-04-09T21:55:00.000-07:00

Yes, I will admit, I am a bit angry. I am more frustrated at the situation. What a better place for me to vent than this venue. In the past week, it seems that people have tried to manipulate me into believing that my theology and my decision about my spirtual nourishment is the wrong one. I have tried to leave them alone. I have been very big about it, simply because we're not in HIGH SCHOOL, it's colege.

On Thursday, I sent the word that I wasn't going to Galveston. I wanted to make a list out before I went and talked to Tom, even though I don't owe him any explaination for leaving Wesley. I simply said that I didn't hear from them until that Tuesday about detials for Saturday and they missed the opportunity. April is so hectic, and I just simply don't have time for folks that can't have the decency to keep me informed about something I am helping them out for. I also mentioned that Wesley was not the place for me anymore and said that I would be glad to discuss it further. I thought that this was a very mature way to settle the matter and really it was the easiest on me.

Sorry, that's not the end of the story. Wish it was, but what would the UMHSM be without a little drama? Well, the way folks act, I would expect nothing less. I got an email from Tom explaining that he was "flabbergasted" at my decision-making regarding the Wesley. That's a direct quote folks.... In fact, he said that he had so much respect for me while I was there.....that's why he is manipulating my emotions now, right? He said that "I hope that you find what you are looking for..." Am I a lost puppy? Does he think I will eventually "wander home" when I need some "food to eat"? Well, I thought about it all weekend and though, "ya know, I still don't owe him an explanation. we'll just leave it at this....no more". WRONG!

Apparently on there mission / fun time trip....I was the topic of conversation...how I betray the Wesley and how I am gone for good. Not that they are wrong....but from what I understand, they're not even telling folks the right reason why I left. Here it is folks....loud and clear:

Just like in algebra....

X+Y=Z BUT does X=Z....nope....you have to have the "Y". That part of the equation is pivotal in order for the function to work properly. Just the same with a "church". If you have all these wondrrful ministries, but you don't have God in the equation....you are wasting time. You are robbing students of that. I chose not to be a part of that....in fact, I chose a ministry, a church, where everything we do and say is focused on Him and His Word. I had said all along....I could care less if 3 students showed up....as long as we were sharing the Gospel and the love of Chrsit...that's all WE have to do. Why is that so confusing.

My gut reaction at this point, out of anger, is to do something back. BUT, that's exactly what the Wesley wants from me....to come crawling back begging for their mercy and forgiveness. I don't need it. I enjoyed the time I had there....I feel that my spiritual walk never progressed there....but, I am no longer blind in my ways any more (haha, laugh it up!). I am so blessed to be at my church with people who include me in everything they do...and that's the way it should be.

Sorry for venting, however, it gave you something to read. Now get back to work...I know you all have something better to be doing. Later...

I Need Some More Days Like This...

2006-04-08T21:09:00.000-07:00

Got up around 11. I stayed up late to wait for Angela to get off of work (which was @ 3am!) Got up and ready pretty quickly, and met Dave and his friend Daniel up at the church. I let him show Daniel around really quick...nothing big. We headed from there into Lufkin pretty quickly.

Went home and got my sister and we went and ran some errands. We ended up going and seeing a few innings of my little brother's baseball game. It's pretty cool....he's gotten very good at almost every sport he plays....the kid is gifted! We left the game early to swing by the church and grab my CD from Todd. Hung out with him and Jonah for a bit and then ran home to catch my other brother's prom pictures.

It's weird how Nick has grown up. He's got a little maturing to do, but that's a common thing through our family. I just now think I got it....people actually can stomach being around me! He is moving to Washington, which is a weird thing to talk about. But, it's his life, and I can't argue with him.

We went and got food from the store and picked up some tortillas and stuff from Del Rio and my mom made an excellent mexican dinner. It was good to be home for a bit...I am, this is scary, looking forward to going home in the next week. Check this out....my last class before Easter is Wednesday at 12p. I don't have another class until the following Wednesday at 11am! THEN, I go to classes on Wednesday, then leave for Maryland the following day. I won't be back for classes until the following Wednesday! Dang! Almost 2 weeks off of school!

Well, things are looking up a bit. I don't know if I mentioned, but I may be playing percussion/drums with Jonathan Martin this summer. I am really excited because it will give me an opportunity to work with him, but also, be a part of a travelling ministry. I haven't really gotten to do that, but I feel like God wants me to be a part of that. Chad Jackson had been somewhat interested in me helping him, but, he's got a drummer. Depending on his drummer's schedule, I may play a bit for him this summer. My drumming may be picking up, which I want to see happen.

Oh by the way, don't get excited about TV shows very often, but I have recently started watching "House M.D.". It's really a good show. Man, I love TiVo, it helps me actually have an entertainment life.

Alright, well the team is attempting "Hosanna" tomorrow. I will post how that works! Later...

Bad Day

2006-04-06T20:46:00.000-07:00

I am having a bad day. Really, it's just been a busy week and I need to get some quality rest. I didn't get anything done today, the praise team practice went awful, and I feel I am losing control of these. I feel like I am letting folks down and I hate that feeling. To top it all off, Angela's work situation continues to get worse and worse. Also, today in the process of cleaning the closet at church, I bumped the snot out of my eye....with a mic stand. I left a big bruise and shook my eye up a bit. I don't know if it did any severe damage, but I am having some slight symptoms of retinal tearing, so, just pray for me, PLEASE.

Not very post-worthy, but, it's all you get....

Oh What a Night!

2006-04-05T22:25:00.000-07:00

Man, it's been a pretty good day. It started slow and rocky, but it picked up a bit. I woke up way late and didn't have time to do much before class. I need to start breaking my bad habits and working out. I may see if Tuesday/Thursday/weekends may work out better.....nevertheless, still woke up late.

Classes were awful. I am horribly lost in Poli Sci. Math is okay, just continuing to bomb quizzes. We went and ate lunch, check mail, and ship a package. Went home and got ready to go to Lufkin.

We got there late....my fault. I fell asleep and didn't wake up on time to take a shower. We got there 20mins. late and it threw some stuff off. Plus, my adapters weren't packed, so we couldn't practice with loops...making that awful.

Set started bad. I screwed up the loop and couldn't turn it off. I think we're going to start throwing the loops into Todd's iPod. He's going to try it this weekend at Sunday AM service. After that (which wasn't really bad), set went decent. I started "For Your Name" too fast, and the D-transition into "You Gave Sight" didn't happen, BUT, I will say this, I had a good time....and I enjoyed playing with Todd, Dave, and Brad. .5ive seemd succesfful. They had a bunch of kids there, and they seemed to enjoy the layout. We'll see what comes of it. I guess I was disappointed in screwing up the loops and I had pumped myself way up for it. I also think I needed somewhat of an ego check. Not that I'm having a problem, but I have been playing so much that I felt like I have gotten bad about practicing. I wil continue to focus on practicing and seeking God in furthering my skills. But, all in all, it was a great set. Sounded good on the recording too!

During the break, I talked with Todd about Ryan and the job at Grace. I think he's really interested. I was worried about some issues, but I know that if it's God plan for Finn to make it to Grace, then it will happen, PERIOD! Finn has grown alot, and he's very interested, so we'll see what comes of that. I definately think he would be a blessing to the church, and a great replacement for John.

Anyways, that's all ya'll get. Later!

The Rundown

2006-04-03T22:49:00.000-07:00

Saturday I went to a Derek Webb concert with Mike, Paul, and a guy named Justin Powers. I was just glad for the fellowship time. I am not a tremendou d.w. fan, but, it's music. We got into town way early and just hung out. Went to McAlister's Deli and had a bread bowl full of chicken and dumplings (DANG it was good!)

Got to the church a bit early and we were asked to see if we wanted to sit up closer (because of Larry). I took that option and we sat front row. The band opening for Derek was a brother-sister duo named Judd and Maggie. One word, PHENOMINAL! AMAZING! SPECTACULAR! They are a great band and I would recommend going and checking their site out (you can find it on the links list). Derek's wife did a great set also. Derek ended up playing it with her which was cool.

When he got up, I was a little bummed. I will be honest; I just didn't care to hear it. I sat there listening, just trying to understand why Mike goes nuts about this dude (not in an obsessive way, by any means...) I listened and then he did that song "Wedding Dress". Personally, I just don't like the song. So I was already just dreading the next hour. Well, he called a ten-minute intermission and he was going to come back and play his entire new album all acoustic.

When he got up there, I continued to listen intently. I wanted to hear what they heard.....and I did. He's very talented. As a songwriter, he's very deep, and I think that's been the turn-off. I started picking up on some of the lyrics and sang along some too! I really enjoyed the acoustic atmosphere. We got to meet him and chat for a while after the show. He had a great time meeting Larry:

I got to take a picture with him too. Really humble guy, very impressing...

I bought his newest CD, "Mockingbird", which is fantastic. Songwriting is great. Instrumentation is great as well. Go check it out!

Sunday, started not so good. First service was very bad, musically. The set was not a good one, just not planned right. I will follow that statement up with this: our team is doing so much and really giving it their all. We ran some stuff between services and in the second service it sounded much better. Very encouraging to see the team get back up there and put aside personal stuff.

Sunday evening is a story in itself. Ryan Finnerud lead the students of Crosspoint in worship. Got to drum on my new kit, NO V-DRUMS, HECK YES! We met at 5 and ran the set:

HERE IS OUR KING (A)
welcome/announcements
SALVATION IS HERE (A)
UNCHANGING (A)
GLORIFY (D, right?)

Incredible set!!! One of Ryan's best when I've played with him. He's matured as a worship leader and he really worked well with the group. Dave did a wonderful job, as did Paul. I really look forward to play more with Dave and Paul, they are both improving leaps and bounds. Michael and Justin seemed pleased with Ryan. At this point, Michael wants to see Finn's resume....but, I don't know what type of commitment the church is looking for. I will keep you guys filled in. Over the next couple of weeks, Crosspoint music stuff is going to change up a bit. It'll will be very cool!

Well, that's leads up to today....I sat at home, watched Wonder Years and ate twinkies.....man oh man!

Good Stuff

2006-03-30T11:34:00.000-08:00

Played the HHBC college service last night with Todd, Ryan, and Paul. We got there on time, and the youth service hadn't let out yet....translation, late seup time.....meaning, zero time to mess with anything. Ended up not doing loops,, not a big deal at all. We soundchecked a bit and then ran the set. Set went well, I screwed up a couple of times for the reason that I have played "Unchanging" with like four different people and the arrangement is always different. No biggie!

During the message, Todd wanted to do a new song. Never played it before, but "For Your Name". Paul had never heard the song, let alone played it, so we got up and gave it a shot with no practice. For not practicing and learning it on the spot, it went well. I am looking forward to playing more with these guys. It seems to click very well together.

Anywho, figured I would update. Have a long day of cleaning ahead of me. Fun fun fun!

Fantastic Day

2006-03-28T08:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a great day, a FANTASTIC day at that. Was it because I woke up late and missed class? Nope, I was somewhat disappointed about that (plus I lost a bet with Brad, darn, I owe him lunch). It was for a lot of reason which I will share with you.

First off, had lunch with John Rolf. Paul, Angela, and myself met him around noon and we went to Casa Tomas. It all came about by him being at Crosspoint on Sunday. See, we played, and I sat down for the message. Larry got a bit jittery and talkative, so I was going to walk outside, let him do his business, and go back in. I walk out in to the foyer and Mike gets my attention and says, "I want you to meet this guy I am going to recommend for worship leader. His name is James." At this point I am looking at the guy and my eyes aren't connecting, but it looks like John. I shake his hand and he sort of laughs, and I knew then it was him.

He told us a lot about the church. It's very amazing, very big, very different. He had a DVD and he showed us some of the music and it was freakin awesome! They did that Tomlin song "On Our Side" and it just sounded superb. We talked about some of the little issues we are having at the church and music stuff he was interested in. He also gave me a CD that the church produced with about three worship leaders doing there original music. DANG! This CD is very good. The production quality is fantastic, songwriting is very good, and the band did a phenominal job. I am supposed to meet with him again Thursday and run some drum loop stuff.

So I come home and realy it seems to be a lazy day. I watched Roseanne and ate some goldfish, actually it was Seinfeld and baked Lays. And around 6 I decided I was going to do something productive....and I didn't. Something grabbed my attention....my PDA. I sat down and I started reading my Bible, and I just couldn't put the thing down. I kept reading and asking myself questions. That truly the first time that's happened, but it was AWESOME! (More later)

So around 8:30p I start on finishing a review for a test for Angela and I. I finish all 25 questions in about 2 hours. They took some time, but it was cool. That's the first time I feel that I have sat down and willingly finished something like that.

Angela gets home and we talked about the Bible stuff. I went online and found out that the NIV bibles cost money for the PDA. I have a little bit but not enough to get that and make it until next week....Angela bought me one of them! It was a bundle, like, it had a few dictionaries, atlas', and the Message Bible (which was interesting to look at). I was very thankful she did that because I was reading the Modern KJV (which isn't bad). I read a little more and went to sleep.

It truly was a fantastic day because I think God is showing me that I just need to keep going the way I am in school. Not to change my major, not to give up. And that He has provided me the means to be in HIs word and that I need to take advantage of that.

Just Something I'm Thinking About

2006-03-25T22:23:00.000-08:00

Ya know, I don't mention very often and don't typically stop to appreciate it....but, I am truly blessed. I have been given so much...so many things I am not even deserving of. I have been blessed with a wonderful relationship, that sometimes I feel I may take for granted. I have the most wonderful girlfriend in the world! I have a great family, who supports and loves me for what I do and who I am. I have incredible friends who do so much for me and never let me down. I am able to attend college which I definately take for granted. I have been given the ability to make music. Something everyone enjoys, I have been blessed with the ability to create it. Isn't that AWESOME! And most importantly, I am so blessed to know that I stand in the presecne of God at all times. I am amazed at how Christ died for me and my sin. The things I do and say that just do nothing for the Kingdom, were all erased when His blood was shed.

In my busy life I feel like some times I need to slow down and truly thank Him for everything I have been blesed with. I just thought I would share some things I was thinking about.

Where Will You Be Summer '06?

2006-03-23T21:48:00.000-08:00

I read that somewhere today on an on-campus advertisement for some summer internship. It's a question alot of college student think about for the remainder of the semester. I emailed some stuff to Jonathan Martin today and he's been pumped about playing some events this summer. It got me thinking, what am I going to be doing?

It is glaringly obvious that I am giddy at the prospect of playing some with folks. I really desire to be utilized by different folks this summer. Already, Todd has a district camp of some sort in mid-summer so hopefully that will pan out. I am just really interested in dedicating a chunk of time to music, mainly because I love it and secondly because I feel I've been blessed with a talent so I should share that. Right, isn't that what it's about?

If anyone knows of folks looking for a drummer....hmmm, don't all two of you rush to drop me an email.....but, if anyone is looking (or you know of someone looking), please let me know. I am seriously interested!

In other news, very uneventful day today. Didn't do much....went to the Crosspoint Mission Trip "Reunion-ish" thing this evening. A little disappointed because not everyone showed up, but it was still fun and I got to have a free dinner (ahhhh yes).

Tomorrow is going to be a long one. Have class, church directory pictures, and a slew of other things to do. Until later....

Stuck...

2006-03-22T22:07:00.000-08:00

I'm stuck. I know what's right and wrong here. I know what needs to be done....but connecting those together is the tough part. First off, I have stated time and time again, "I'm done with Wesley". Why can't I just come out and say that UP FRONT and HONESTLY.

I met with Tom and Carl today and couldn't just flat out say "I'm done". I think I am just too nice. I've always said, I think God blessed me wth my abilities to help serve His people. I feel like whenever some one is in need of those talents/abilities, I love to jump at the opportunity because I feel God blessed me for a reason. I felt like when I left I was just belittled and manipulated. I am done with that. I am done with the manipulation. I am going to stand up for what I believe is right. Whether it be theology or just the fact I don't want to be bullied....not the point here. In the next week I am going to tell Tom the reason I am leaving Wesley, and it may not go down so well, but it's the way it is going to be.

On a lighter note.....summer and fall plans are falling together nicely (there's just no easy way to transition from that). I am always seeking God on my destination for college. I am sick and tired of wasting time and if I continue to call the shots, I will be here for nearly a decade. It's time for me to give it up and let Him show me where I am supposed to go. I am starting to think teaching would be good, but I just don't know. I want to be excited about something for once, other than getting out of here. Hey, I should just move to Nashville and go to Belmont......I wish.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention this....I got a PDA yesterday. Got it for a few reasons; the screen lends itself to reading hte Bible very easy....which was a plus and a half for me (it's difficult to find something portable to read for a Bible...does that make sense), it keeps me organized schedule-wise, it's got WiFi and Bluetooth, and it can play mp3's and video. It wasn't too expensive and I think it will help with alot of aspects of my life. Kinda weird huh?

Until later...

As promised....

2006-03-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

This past week was so amazing. I've had to catch myself from talking about it so much. It was just such an awesome experience that I've walked away with so much. The social stuff was fantastic (I will go more indepth), but my spiritual growth was just amazing.

We left Sunday for Louisiana at around 9ish. I got there at 6am with Angela to see her off and ended up going over to church and helping Mike with sound and staying for the music at the first service. We prayed and headed out. This whole time, I was a bit nervous and reluctant of why I was going. I wanted to, but just was not sure if anything would really come of it.

We got in town in about 2 hours. Had forgotten how close it would be! The car ride gave me a little time to talk with the girls (Paul and I rode with the ladies for the most part....you know how we roll - did I just say that?) When we rolled into where we were staying, I was very suprised at our acccomodations. We were in cabins right on the lake. It was gorgeous. We unpacked and a couple of the girls, Alan, and I headed to the dock of the lake. We hung out, sat around, and chated. Just in the time talking, I knew I was wanted there...one thing I have never felt before.

Daniel (another one of the guys there) and I wnet canoeing shortly after. Really the reason we went is because I was worried about Sidney and Bethaney who had went out and got swept away to the other side of the lake. We zipped around for a bit and headed back.

We went to the Methodist church that first eveniung and got to meet with our site volunteers Gary and Connie. I was quickly reassured that I would be working that week. Connie said I was going to get to wire the hosue and help insulate the outside of the house! DANG! We hung out and talked for a bit and it was just so comforting to be in the presensce of the Lord and good friends!

That evening for our devotional time, we shared our testimonies. Ya know, I never get tired of sharing mine. It is so amazing how God can always lead you back to Him. Bethaney said it perfectly "I am glad to know that I am not the only one with a past." But, I've been thinking, you have to have a past to have a future.

The week went amazing! Connie worked with me for the first two days, but after that, I found things I could do and just did them. The wiring got done quickly and I soon found out that hammering was something I enjoyed doing. I even ended up on the roof with Sidney and Bethaney on Friday. I even used a power saw!!! Singling was fun too! I think I got more experience building a house than most people do on similar mission trips. The even better part is, everyone was willing to let me try stuff. And EVERYONE was encouraging. Not a negative word was said about me, even when I was slower and not quite getting it.

Socially, we did alot. Volleyball and board games wer very common during the week. Never played volleyball, but even though I stunk at it, I had a blast. And they let me and wanted me to play! Never have I ever felt so wanted! On past retreats (Wesley mainly), I was told I was wanted, but no one seemed to care. We would play games and people wouldn't help in any way. This group loved on me and took care of me even though I wsn't as fast or competent. It was so uplifting!

Spiritually, God spoke to me. All week! Every day! It was so fantastic! I have been in sort of in a stagnant sort-of "where do I go now" phase. I feel like God showed me. I learned so much about the Word and what He wants from me. I feel like I was encouraged as a Christian more than Wesley ever did in three years. I don't mean to bash, but, it is hard to imagine being back in that istuation. God made it all fall together and led me to Grace for this experience. I have never been in a gruup this size where after a week I didn't have a problem with someone. NEVER HAD A PROBLEM WITH ANYONE, not even a small one!!!! They were great! We were all at the same spot, where we just needed a jump start. Every situation fell together to make it easy to just stand in awe of Him. The week, in Paul's words, was more of a retreat plus work. We were also so energize and refreshed in Christ. I was walking away with that taste where I just craved more of Christ!

I keep saying it, but, from the little things like going out in the middle of the night and playing pranks on the girls, I felt wanted and involved. I am so thankful that I started getting involved with Crosspoint and Grace and didn't just stay home instead. I feel like this is a beginning to some amazing things. He's not done with me, and He's never given up, and I won't either. No matter how far I've been away from Him, He's always helped me back. I am so blessed and glad I have 9 other folks there along with me for the ride!

Thanks for all of your prayers and support! They were answered and I am so glad you were a part of this! Until tomorrow...

Whataweekend

2006-03-19T21:21:00.000-08:00

I purposely spelled it like that. I wanted you to all know I am back safe and sound in Nacogdoches. One thing....the most fantastic spiritual experience ever! You will all be filled in tomorrow or the next day. I have a lot to soak in and some much to say....but know that you will have lots to read and look at!

Life on the Road

2006-03-05T23:26:00.000-08:00

I had a gig in Tyler with Todd, Paul, and Ryan (hopefully next time you see Ryan's name, he'll have a link!). Gig went very well. Here's a few things that scared me up top:

- First off, Paul and I had all the sound equipment in my mom's Expedition....and we were running late. Umm, that doesn't add up to well.

- Secondly, we got there asnd found out we were playing in the second smalles room that I have ever played in (ummm....ask Paul).

- There weren't very many kids coming to this retreat.

Ok, so that wasn't even an accurate guess of how the weekend could have been because it went so well. The kids (about 20) were very responsive. Ya know, it's always hard to tell at those things if it is just that emotional high (from being away from home at a camp) if that is affecting them. It's definately my prayer that their worship was sincere, which I am sure it was. They seemed very focused and not too distracted. It made our job easier, and much more enjoyable.

Alright, os over the next couple days I will share funny tidbits that I was privledged to be a part of. HOPEFULLY, you can see just how much better I am at recalling details than my fellow friends that went on this trip. Show some love, show some love!

The key phrase of the weekend.....

So, at dinner on Friday night, I talked about the time I got a visit from the HoustonChronicle salesperson and he essentially just gave me a subscription. All I had to remember was "I paid with cash". Easy enough?

Soon enough, every one started using my lines. Gosh, every other word was....."blah blah blah, I paid with cash"....those dorks!

Scavagening
So, even before the whole, "I paid with cash" thing, we had to get to dinner first. Ryan and Todd already ate, so it was pretty much up to Paul and me. We're so indecisive. We drove (15 mins. at this point) to IHOP. They were packed! We circled on by Whataburger (WHAT - A - BURGER, not WATER-BURGER). They are equally packed!. We drivearound and can't find anything. We ended up back at IHOP. An hour, just down the hole. Then we go into IHOP, and the hostess is sitting on the floor in the walkway inside of IHOP (like that little in-between fouyer thing). She asks us how many people we have. We tell her and she continues to sit there. OK, why did we even tell her?

After waiting another 15 minutes, not bad not bad, we sit at a booth, and the waitress asks us, "how many people are ya'll having?".....hmmmm.....really there are too many smart mouthed comments I could make here! Other than the little "duh" moments, it was a great meal. Cinna-stacks rock!

more to come!!!

Alright in other news, I am going to Maryland (April 20-25th). Todd and I will be meeting up with a bass player up there and Forrest will fly in from Nashville. Also, Robert will aide in the funkified grooves with some percussion. It is going to be a blast!

I leave for mission trip this upcoming week. Thanks to all for your financial support as well as your prayers (which are JUST AS IMPORTANT!). It's going to be a lot of fun. We will leave on Sunday and come back the following Saturday. Keep me in your prayers that week, and all the others involved for that matter.

Alright, I will share some more lovely details about the retreat tomorrow. Until then...

Terribly Sick

2006-02-21T22:27:00.000-08:00

It's been a pretty slow week so far. It's been pretty mixed as far as the goo dnad bad. First off, found the mp3 player I lost. I am frustrated because I pretty much bought another one because I thought it was gone....but, it's as good as sold on eBay. Speaking of eBay, I have made about $250 in three days on there. I sold some stuff I no longer use, and just need to ship it this week.

I have been sick since yesterday. It's the same junk Angela had last week. It's horrible! I am hoping I will be feeling better by Thursday.

May have a gig in April with Todd! Pretty excited, but I will fill you all in as soon as I know it's definite.

Sorry for the short entry, just wanted to let you all know I am alive. Later!

The Sweetest

2006-02-15T00:20:00.000-08:00

Alright, I am going out and saying it......I am dating the most wonderful, sweetest, most thoughtful, considerate, most caring girl in the world! Angela gave me the greatest present for Valentines Day around! First off, we decided we were going to go to a movie in Lufkin (Nac theaters are no good). We went and took care of business at Wesley (officially off payroll tomorrw), and headed the way of Lufkin.Rolled into town and ran errands and made it just in time for the movie.

I suprised her and we went to "The Matador"....not a movie I would have chosen but she was interested in it a few weeks ago, so I knew she would enjoy it (back to that below). As we sat at the previews, Angela hands me this stack of papers. I open it up and she wrote the most beautiful and thoughtful letter for me. But, get this, she had it printed in braille!!!! I was so suprised. What made it better is I had no clue what it was going to be....and it is rare to catch me off guard. We left the movie and she gave me my other present in the car, which was a Remote Control holder....which I desperately needed.

I feel awful because I haven't finished getting her present. I love Valentines Day because it is the day she expects to be loved on, but.....that's just it, it is expected. I want to make it something incredibly special. It will be, trust me....

As for the movie....some pretty dirty parts (which neither of us knew about), some cursing (which again, didn't expect), but the storyline was actually pretty good. I get turned off pretty easy to movies with ALOT of cursing, but this one was ok. Wouldn't recommend it highly....but, hey, it was decent.

Well, no Wesley tomorrow, maybe no Grace stuff either....may have a Wednesday off. ROCK ON!

Did I Forget to Mention...

2006-02-12T21:35:00.000-08:00

Casting Crowns and Nicole Nordeman came to Nac today. I wasn't really all excited like most just because I am not a big fan of either. I found out after church that Tim Mullican had a ticket he was going to sell for $15, so I got it. Now, the biggest reason why is because he bought five for his family, they received five free tickets elsewhere, so he was selling them so that he could buy Chris Tomlin tickets for his family. The kids were EXTREMELY excited about that Tomlin show, so I figured I would help out. Was I glad I did!

Show was fantastic! Nicole Nordeman, whom I really don't care for, was phenominal. Not only is she an extremely talented performer, she's an incredible songwriter. The $15 was worth it just for her (yes I said it). Her band, whom I assume were session guys, did an amazing job of emulating the rather pop, loopy tones on her records.

Casting Crowns, the band as a whole, was sick. It was still a really good show. They can rock, but nothing compares to the drummer. He beat the junk out of those drums. Every hit made the entire kit shake! DANG! They did a phenominal job!

In other notes, told Carl I wanted a break from Hearts Afire today. Only said a month or so, but I finished with "let's go from there...". I don't anticipate getting back involved. I will make one note....I have been very proud of some Wesleyans this week. I will say that I will still be involved on some level, as far as, fellowship stuff. I like alot of people there, just differing opinions.

Have a test tomorrow, and need to meet with Justin (the pastor) about some pretty important stuff....regarding equipment usage. Other than that, pretty breezy day tomorrow.

May have a thing at Harmony Hill on Wednesday, should be interesting...

Please Pray!

2006-02-09T07:47:00.000-08:00

Todd's new baby girl, Finley, is back in the hospital. It's been a difficult week so far and they were pretty certain everything was fine as of last night. This morning they found out there are some intestinal problems and the DR. needs to have a specialist come from Shreveport to examine it. Just be in prayer that this baby is protected and this family is comforted. The Wrights are amazing people and they love Finley so much. Just pray that God will help guide the doctors in giving this child the best possible care available.

ALSO, on another prayer note, I have a stitch or two lose in my left eye from the surgery. It's bothering me so much, I didn't sleep any last night. Honestly, I will feel better soon, but it is frustrating in the mean time.

Thanks guys! Have a wonderful day!

Figured I would share...

2006-02-07T12:12:00.000-08:00

So, I figured I would share this picture with you guys. It's from a sign outside of a dry cleaners here in Nacogdoches. Angela and I are sending it into Jay Leno's "Headlines", so hopefully we'll get it on the air.

What I am wondering is, how they thought people were going to interpret this? And also, if we actually have anyone that took this sign literally? Oh well, they changed the sign yesterday, so now all we have is this picture!

Hot off the Press!

2006-02-06T13:41:00.000-08:00

Well, for some big news....I officially quit my job at the Wesley. I say this as if it is extremely exciting, and that's not it. It's a good thing, for me at least, because it has really hindered me. I am thrilled because now I have time to serve (and participate) at Grace more. The meeting with Tom went rather well...in fact, I think it may have helped the overall picture. Wesley isn't working, and I think it's going to take some bold folks to stand up and say what they think....I believe that I am not one of the most confrontational people, but I made some very valid statements that were pretty bold.

One thing I did wrong....I made vague statements about things I had wrong. I didn't mention specific people merely because it truly is no one else's business. I made statements about inappropriate behavior, negativity, and other things. I am pretty sure that I want to meet with him one more time so that I can be a little more specific. Reasons being, I think for him to fix problems, he needs to be completely aware of every aspect of it.

So, where to now? Carl needs to pick up the reins and run with them now. I am meeting with him to discuss website details (passwords, setup, editing) and discuss his plans.

Well, school stunk today. I failed a quiz in Poli Sci, then another one in Math. No biggie, quiz grades aren't too heavy on the grade. Business Communication groups were assigned today and I got a good one. Our topic sucks (Pet Marketting), but, oh well. Once research starts, it should clear it self up.

In other news.....set up all my recording stuff at Grace now. It's in our back closet. It's pretty cool because now we have the ability (anyone who is interested) to go and easily plug in and either record to the Roland or into Pro Tools. It's pretty sweet! I am about to order a set of studio monitors and a mixer so I can actually use it some more. Hope to get some stuff going soon!

Alrighty, off to do some stuff!

Long Day, More to Come

2006-02-05T22:01:00.000-08:00

This morning started really really early. I got to church around 7:35a, just in time for a sound check/run thru. Had some V-Drum issues, but nothing that won't be taken care of. First service was decent.....just little musical issues that hopefully will work themselves out. Tim Mullican, our acoustic guitarist for the time being, did a fantastic job coping with tempo issues on the vocal side. Very humble guy who truly has a servant's heart. It's good to work with those kinds of people.

Went back to the dorm to catch about an hour of sleep after "round one" as we will now call it. I had changed back into my sleeping clothes, and get a phone call from Mike and Paul and they want to go to Donut Palace. YUM, but YIKES. I am not even deressed. Wait wait wait, get that image out of your heads', I was dressed, just not to go out.

Went to the Donut Shack where we talked and ate. Headed back to GBC for the second service and it went a little better. Like I said, tempo issues are tough when your lead vocalist is not an instrumentalist.

Headed home, chilled, and met Paul back at GBC around 4p so that we could go to our Mission Trip meeting. That was a load of fun! My group is very cool and I am growing more excited as the time rolls on. It's going to be so much fun!

Got to GBC for the Super Bowl Party at around 5. It was alot of fun and a great time to hang out with people. I haven't done alot of fellowship stuff with folks from Grace, so this was refreshing to attend a fellowship event out of my own free-will rather than obligation. Had a fun time just talking and getting to know folks.

And now, I am home. I am ready to sleep! I have a big announcement and hopefully I can make it after tomorrow. I am truly excited about it....and it's going to be great for me.

ALSO, check this out! Read the first blog entry...good stuff! I am so happy I've been led where I am at.

Later!

Questions?

2006-02-02T10:57:00.000-08:00

This morning has been very frustrating. I decided on Tuesday that I wanted to meet with my pastor, Justin Beadles, and just discuss the Bible, theology, and life in general. So we decided on Thursday's at 10:30a, we would do that.

I show up with alot on my mind. Number one, Wesley is still eating me up. I am so torn between what I think I should do, and what I know needs to be done. Number two, I am struggling knowing that entering into this meeting (this Bible study if you willl), I am a "doof". I don't know scripture, really at all. Excuses aside, I have not been exposed to it as much as I needed to be. I have grown bored with it, and therefore, don't immerse myself in it. As ashamed as I am about that, Justin never made me feel dumb.

Justin started by handing me an object, told me not too look, but simply make observations. I, out of confusion, just straight up told him it was a dice. I am not a patient person, and when I am frustrated and confused, I just blurt what I think is appropriate. He then told me just to make observations, just small ones, and tell details I can understand and see about it.

You have to open your eyes and observe to fully comprehend and understand what it means to you. Speaking about scripture, without observing and gathering information, you'll never find the application for you life.

We moved in to the Word and looked at this verse of scripture:

Acts 1:8 (New International Version)

8But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."

We looked at that scripture, and honestly, I couldn't gather much. Knowning me, or maybe even some of you don't know this but I'll sahre regardless. I don't read the Bible. Whether it's becase I can't see it and hearing it bores me, or whether I just don't...it's unimportant....what's the important thing is, just using what Justin showed me, I am pumped!

We broke that verse down, and made tons of observations, from the word "but", to the verb tense of "will receive", etc. There's oddles of observations one can make. I am not going to lie....it's frustrating, because I am still struggling to observe and absorb all of it. However, I understand that it's not supposed to be easy. We're not supposed to be able to open up the Bible and just inhale all the knowledge of the Word. If we could do that....it would not bare as much importance on our lives as it does today.

Justin is an incredible leader and a fantastic pastor. If anyone is in this area and can visit one Sunday, DO IT! Justin Beadles has, in one meeting, changed my life. That's odd to say, but, I can honestly say that my outlook on the Bible is completely changed. Will I still struggle with it? Probably... Is it going to be hard? Of course! But, I want it to be. I want to dig deeper and deeper to find the answers to further my walk.

We prayed for a better understanding of the Word, and the ability to observe it's many wonderful things and to be able to better observe details. We then talked about me, and things I do and think about. We brought up Wesley, and some of the issues I have...some big, some not-so big, and some minor issues. I am drawing closer to a conclusion, but, I need time to think everything through and decide what's better for the sitaution. God's going to be there whichever way I go.

Anyways, that was my morning....

I HOP-ped and hollered!

2006-01-30T22:55:00.000-08:00

HURRAY! Angela got a job today. IHOP called her early this morning to let her know she had an interview at one this afternoon. She showed up and essentially they handed her the job. NICE!

We decided to head to Lufkin and do some shopping (for her job) and take care of little losse ends there. We also ended up seeing our good friends the Wrights (minus Kristen, who was at home preparing for the newest addition to family tomorrow, WOW). We brought a portable DVD player for them (which they already ended up having one) and also a Blockbuster gift card. Ya know, that kid is cool (Todd too). He is so funny, so friendly, and extemely polite. He is going to grow up and make his parents very proud.

Went to Wal-Mart, Old Navy, and then my house. We decided to take my sister out to dinner (never get to spend any time with her) and picked her up at basketball practice. Got to see my good frined Corrie Caldwell. He hasn't changed a bit! What's funny is, it's like we never dropped off. He's a nut!

Went to IHOP and tried there french toast with some strawberry syrup. MAN, I am sure glad Angela is working there!!!!

Now I'm at home watching some Law and Order and, of course, blogging.

Sunday - How Do We? (part two) (A DAY LATE)

2006-01-30T22:47:00.000-08:00

Part two....Went to Mike and Paul's for lunch. Some of the best food comes from those guys (not literally). Breakfast burritos....dang! Ran up to the church early to set up for Crosspoint...percussion setup with synth/loops.

Ya know....I am by no means an emotional person (I feel I've said this before), but by the last song, I am fighting off tears. I am going to be honest....I am going to miss John. I walked off stage and couldn't fight off giving the guy a hug. It's weird, I came into this thinking I couldn't learn much, and John did teach me things. I did learn! He's a good guy, and I am really sorry to see him go, BUT, I know he's got reasons, and you can't argue with God's calling. As I walked off, I told him that he better keep in touch. I sat down, and pretty much fought off tears the entire service.....OK OK, I am a baby!

You know, things are going to get better. I have faith God will guide us through this. Our leadership is so great, and they will help make the process smoother.

After Crosspoint, I met with my mission trip group for Spring Break. We're going to Louisiana, GET THIS, to Springhill, the SMALL TEENY TINY city I lived in several years back. I am in a group with Paul, and about 8 other people. It's my first Crosspoint thing outside of music, so I am pumped!

Alright, enough, I am off to sleep.

Sunday - How Do You? (part one)

2006-01-29T07:13:00.000-08:00

How do you tell a congregation whom you've served so faithfully for almost five years that you've taken another job? How do you tell them that you feel called to go somewhere else, and that things will go on without you? To have faith in Him and all is well...that's exactly what you tell them. Grace Bible Church is one staff short after today. John Rolf is leaving the church, and as sad as I am to see him go, Justin has made it plain and clear that we will move on. And we will!

This morning's set (or at least the first service, since it is only 9:15), was a different one....I am so mixed as emotions come. Tim and I talked about set planning and practices. It seems they want to move practice up to 7 on Wednesday's rather than 8....which would mean I cannot attend. I am nervous about that. The practice is important, don't get me wrong, but I am more concerned about the "tightness" of this temporary group. We will never gel as a team if we don't consistantly practice together.

Anyways, I wanted to vent a litte....it's going to be a rough day....you WILL get a part two....

Top Ten Things About My Church / Other Stuff

2006-01-26T13:03:00.000-08:00

Todd posted a couple days ago about the top ten things he loves about his church (Lufkin FUMC). I want to compile a similar list to tell exactly why I love the church I am at (in no particular order)

10. Justin (our pastor) preaches the Word boldly and truthfully.
9. The people are inviting and loving, to anyone and everyone.
8. We offer ministries to fit each and every lifestyle.
7. I leave every week, wanting more and more....
6. Our mission....to encourage and equip people to be disciples of Jesus Christ.
5. Visitors enter the building on Sunday and it's zero-pressure the whole time they're there....I can definately vouch for this one!
4. APPLICATION, APPLICATION, APPLICATION!
3. College students are just important as those who have been there for decades.
2. People come seeking God and the truth that the Word speaks to them.
1. We pull toghether when times get tough....and when they do, Justin shows us how the Bible tells us to respond.

So, things have been different this week. An interesting piece of news....John Rolf is leaving GBC. I found out Monday from Michael Dennis. You know, I'll be honest, at first I was rather upset/somewhat mad. Why was I that way....John is a good friend of mine. We showed up to practice last night and our pastor was there....John told us and then Justin spoke....and in most situations I wouldn't really listen....but Justin spoke straight from the Bible. As soon as he was done, I was just filled with relief and I was happy for John. He honestly feels called to lead this other church....and I will support him.

Now, as far as I know, the team that would lead when John was unavailable will help until the church hires another worship pastor. I am excited about this because I think it means alot for me. Last night when we ran through the songs for the first week John will be gone....it was a bit rocky....I really feel like God is calling me to step up a bit and help the team. I have had experience with this before....very similar experiences. When the praise team just vanished a couple years ago at FUMC Lufkin....I helped put a team together and we took care of everything....projection, lighting, sound, etc.....fun times! This team hear just needs some tempo work, some help with arrangements, and just constant encouragement. I think the issue is confidence....and they just need that pat on the back and praise from time to time.

In school news, classes are going well. This should be a good semester. I am enjoying my math class alot....and even my business communications class.

As for Wesley, that's just a mess. I won't dive into it now, but expect a post later today or tomorrow about all that.

Alright....that's all folks!

Why Even Have a Title?

2006-01-11T12:41:00.000-08:00

Alright, well, nothing is going on. Ready for school to start back up. All I have done for the past few days is mess with my new Dell DJ....so here's the story (seriously, I am this desperate for a post):

I got a Dell DJ about 8 months ago. It was a 20GB (because I do have a lot of music), so I figured it would be perfect. Well, I ended up finding out, after I spent 200 bucks on it, that THIS model wasn't compatible with Napster. SHOOT! I was mad! I just stored all my CD's on it (and yes, some of my downloaded music). Since then, I have filled it almost 75%. Well, I found a spectacular deal on one that was 30 gigs. I got it and the only reason is, it's compatible with Rhapsody and Napster. I have download almost 500 songs in a week. LEGALLY at that! YES!

I missed church on Sunday. Family stuff was going on and didn't feel I could leave town for a good part of the day. I did, however, go to First Methodist here in Lufkin. Service was interesting. It has changed alot since I went there last. Band is sounding really good. Sermon was a bit different, but I have heard so many good things about Mike that I know his sermons are usually different. It wasn't not a bad sermon, just not very applicable. Man, I am pumped about retreat (music, not council). Todd is going to do a phenominal job, the team is excited, and the Reason synth/piano stuff is going to add alot. I have been working on the pinao stuff and I think it will add a whole new feel to our sound.

As long as we are on the Wesley boat, I want to dive into something that alot of my friends know about. I have been talking to alot of people about leaving my job at Wesley. I have been doing alot of thinking, (mostly praying), about what God wants me to do. He called me into this position, do you turn your back on something God calls you to do? Well, I put a date on it (said I was quitting this semester). I was laying in bed yesteday thinking about it, and I thought, you know, God called me to do this, I can't leave until He tells me to. I can just get up and leave the first second I am uncomfortable with something. I may not agree with everything that goes on there, but I believe that the worship team is really a draw for folks to come to Wesley. Music is a very good thing we offer. I know it's very difficult (those of you who know just what I have to put up with), but, I am going to hang in there for a while. I feel that something big is about to happen. Something so big, Wesley is in for major changes....I will keep you guys posted.

Well, hmmm....that's it....

Play Count VS Patience

2006-01-05T23:38:00.000-08:00

So, the question at hand, "should we use a number system to determine when a song is "done with""?

My thoughts are a little on both sides of this topic. I want to begin with the fact that God comes first in this equation. The songs we put forth on Sunday morning, Wednesday evening, Sunday afternoon, (whatever the case may be), need to be played with the desire to see the Lord glorified by His people. Now, with that in mind, songs have to be placed together in a service in which it allows people to freely worship.

Here's my system:
Week 1: begins in rotation (fast songs usually start in 2nd or 3rd slot - slow songs usually towards the mid part of the set)
Week 2: shuffles around in set a bit
Week 3: out of rotation
Week 4: fast songs - 1 song slot
slow songs - song before message
Week 5: it is either dropped from rotation, or takes one week off

There are exceptions to this system:

a) our people really respond to a song:
- I have left worship on week 2 and I hear people singing or humming the song.
- in worship people are visibly engaged in worship

b) it is special music
c) the song is visibly distracting

It is important to be (as a musician/vocalist) excited and not annoyed by a song that you are leading. Blake mentioned that there is nothing more annoying than an overplayed song. And this is true. HOWEVER, as a worship leader, often times you have to give up your personal tastes and opinions. HOLD UP! I did just go there...and I am sorry if that is not what some believe. I hold that to be true alot of the time in my worship situation.

Wesley is home to alot of folks that enjoy older contemporary music and hymns. That's not the type of worship music I respond to, but, I am called to further the Kingdom, and if that's how Wesleyans respond, than that is the music I am called to play. I belive a system to determine when a song is overplayed is good, on paper and in theory.... but to determine if the people find the number of times you play a redundant is quite a different system. Congregations are complex, and the Lord works in many different ways, that to devise such a system might be impossible.

Just Another Day...

2006-01-02T22:55:00.000-08:00

Woke up around 11 this morning. Not a very busy day...took my time getting out of bed and moving around. Angela headed over about 3ish and we went and grabbed a bite to eat and took my brother and sister for a round of Ray's milkshakes. Dang, milkshakes rock!

Played around with Larry for a while. That dog has been a handful lately. He's been really sick and has worried me for the last couple of days. Found out this morning that he has been eating the puppies' food when I let him outside to use the restroom. That little jerk! I chewed him out pretty hard after I caught him. He seemed disgusted with himself. He ran around really hard and he seems to be feeling better.

Angela and I decided to use some of our gift certificates that we got for Christmas and decided to go see a movie. We figured we would see a later showing. We had $20 and only used half of it on tickets. Thank you STARPLEX for the student discount. We saw "Fun With Dick and Jane". Decent movie. Man, Jim Carrey will never be as funny as he used to be. He has definately lost some of his charm. The movie had its moments and I laughed.

We got some dinner and ate (Burger King....mustard whopper with cheese....yum yum). Came home and ate and then decided we would go for a lovely little walk with Princess Larry.....he's such a baby sometimes.

We walked about 3 1/2 miles and it was a really nice walk. Larry was limping a little (needs to go to the vet tomorrow). We finished it in under an hour. Nice walk!

Well, that's about the most boring post ever....

Back in Action

2005-12-30T00:38:00.000-08:00

I had my surgery last week. No big thing, just another one to put up on the board....same results. It's hard to tell right now whether its going to be better for my long term. Some things are better, some things are the same, and some are just not happening. Couple good things from it....things are brighter, I can read some larger print.....more to come I am sure of it. I will keep you all updated.

Today I went to Nac to begin working on my newest project, "Not My Son", which was written by Nicholas a week or so ago. I used my Roland to track a click, a scratch vocal and acoustic. Yesterday was dedicated to getting drums tuned and ready for this afternoon. I bought some new cymbals over the last month and a half and they proved themselves today. DRUMMERS: If any are reading (hah, people don't read this thing), go buy Zildjian K Customs! Worth every penny!

Got to Wesley at around 2p and began setting up mics. Finished setting everything up about 2:45ish and started trying to set levels. I HATE SETTING THIS JUNK UP!!!!! I got frustrated and gave up around 5ish because the way everything is configured I would have to run across the room to make adjustments. Lesson learned! I ordered my M-Audio FireWire 1814 (8 ins, 10 outs) and a copy of Pro Tools 7. I messed around with a rig that is setup in Nac at my church and it is very very easy. The Roland is going to be a great tool to use for smaller stuff, but, this Pro Tools rig should be very sweet!

So, for now, I may scrap what I have and just redo it all. I am debating whether I want to go back and try drums again, maybe just kick, snare, and 2 overheads.....only time will tell.

Met up with Paul at 6:30 and we talked for a little while. Angela got off work early and we all went and had dinner at Chili's. Ya know, Chili's chicken crispers never get old.

Well, I guess that's about it. I hope this is somewhat of a decent post. I have been getting hate mail regarding lack of post-activity.

Later!

TAGGED!

2005-12-24T13:46:00.000-08:00

Unlike my good friend Paul James, I do not like these forward/chain mail type things. Why you ask? Plain and simple, they force me o break my lazy habits and react to something that was sent to me. Plus, most of the people I know get rather annoyed by them. BUT, since Paul tagged me, I will do it.

1. I drum on EVERYTHING (walls, tables, doors, etc...)
2. I have very odd eating habits (hate vegetables, dressings, mayo)
3. Dance with my dog (yes, I do that...I know it's really weird....DON'T JUDGE ME!)
4. Like to find unusual things to do with my fake eye.
5. Have to sleep with the TV on.

Ok, so those pretty much are lame, but, it's what was expected of me...so, the next part is where you get the pleasure of doing the same thing (posting 5 weird habits) and then passing it on to your friends that are on Blogspot/Xanga/MySpace. And the lucky few are:

1. Todd Wright
2. Jonathan Martin
3. Blake Stewart
4. Edwin Rivera
5. Daniel Rowe
6. Clay Walker

YES! I got six! Alright, now you guys do what I did and pass it on. Don't be annoyed, don't put it off, just DO IT and get it over with.

Here's a little note:
I am starting a seperate blog that will hold all my project notes for some new stuff I am working on. I am taking a huge dive into digital recording in the next few weeks, including purchasing some incredible equipment and beginning (and finishing) some projects. I will post my progress and links to where you can hear my stuff. Some will have me on drums, some percussion, some will be me just sitting back and letting others do some. It's going to rock, and want you all to be a part of it. Check it out by clicking here. Later!

3, 2, 1...ROLLING!

2005-12-02T22:48:00.000-08:00

Recording drums is so stinkin' fun. Okay, I setup to record at about 4:30p. Instead of beginning, I wanted to lossen up a bit. I haven't played in a couple of days and haven't really practiced, so that turned into an hour or so. Tiny note...

I am using VDRUMS! Grace bought the top-of-the-line Roland module with a top of the line Hart Dynamics v-drum kit. We're rockin it electronic style. These things are so close to being real it's not funny. You can customize the type of wood the drums are to emulate. It's nuts! V-Drums have a great feature of having built-in patterns and sequences so I can play along to pre-recorded music. It is nice to practice with.

So, about 6 rolls around and Mike and Paul come to Grace. We piddle around with sound levels for church on Sunday and then end up going out to eat. Haven't recorded yet...

We meet Angela and head off to San Miguel's. Pretty good food, not the greatest, but, oh well. We drive back by Grace and I setup a click and let it record for a few minutes. I then have to go back and get levels relatively set. I hit record for the drum tracks at around 11. I did two takes, and picked the best one. It's up at my portfolio site. I am going to "pretty: that site up a bit and post a link here pretty soon. Hopefully the mix is usable and if it is, I am off to song number two. That's pretty much my day in a nutshell. Later...

Paul B. / New Cell Phone / Todd Trax

2005-11-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

So, I have been listening to alot of music lately. I came across Paul's new single, "Your Name", which will be released with the rest of his new album in March. I, like Todd, didn't find the "offering" album initially to be great. I listened to it alot and thought about the lyrics and how they glorify God and man, I was hooked. Paul is great and so is this new track. I definately look forward to hearing more from this new album...maybe some more electrnoics...

Today I went to get my phone transfered over to Cellular One (yuck)...and unfortunatel, I wasn't given a new phone for free due to system incompatability. It was either, continue to use my dad's phone (and leave him without one), or buy a new one. Angela got a new one as well. I got the Nokia 6102 (the new phone they are advertising on TV)...it's pretty cool, worth my money.

Finally, I am back to the realm of digital recording. It's been a while and i'm a little older and a little wiser. Todd has me working on "Promised One". I have learned how to record synth stuff, and also bass lines. Well, it's trickier than I thought, bass is tough. It makes me really appreciate and respect my worship team even more. I am hoping that we can get this one done and move on to something else. I enjoy doing this and am learning so much about Reason, music theory, and arranging.

Alright, I'm out!

Gotta start posting!

2005-11-05T19:31:00.000-08:00

So, I haven't updated this sucka' in a while. Why you ask? Because I am stinkin' busy!

Life has been hectic...with Hearts Afire, Grace Bible Church (AM Worship and Crosspoint), other Wesley stuff, and school....I stay busy. Right now, I am doing laundry and cleaning the dorm so that it is somewhat presentable.

Today I went and played some music with Paul at GBC. We played a couple songs and I realized my setup was NASTY! I wish I could just wiggle my ears and my drums would set themselves up with the perfect configuration, but, that's not possible. So for the rest of the time we were there, I tore down and set up the drums. Paul and I talked alot about Wesley, Grace, and lots of other stuff. It was good times!

So tomorrow, Paul Hagler will be leading worship and it should be interesting. I wasn't at practice, so I am a bit out of the loop. We'll see. Until tomorrow.

Thanks for the Break Rita!

2005-09-26T16:09:00.000-07:00

So, my power never went out at all. I didn't have any damage to MY dorm windows or anything like expected. I didn't need to ration any food or water. Really the only thing Rita did was open my schedule up. I didn't have church yesterday or class today. Now, some people didn't get off as lucky as I did, but alot of that was further south. The only bad thing Rita did that affected me was cell phone service, but it was nice not hearing my phone ring all the time. It gave me an opportunity to kick back and enjoy life. I haven't done that any lately.

Classes resume tomorrow and I am somewhat relieved. I have a political science test on Thursday, Wesley practice tomorrow, worship on Wednesday, band practice for Grace on Wednesday right after worship, and a whole mess of junk in between. This week, I am trying harder to keep a SCHEDULE of everything that HAS to get done. For instance, I found out last week I have to book the Ag Pond for our Outdoor Worship. I always forget that this is in my job responsibilities. I also am in the midst of planning a retreat for our worship team. We are really going in a different direction this year and I am not sure what I am going to do. Unfortunately, all that has to be figured out this week.

Well, I am going to go find something to eat and study some Poli Sci! YAY!!! Til' tomorrow...

It's a Bird, It's a Plane, It's Rita...

2005-09-23T22:11:00.000-07:00

Hello folks! So, the storm is rapidly approaching and they are predicting more drastic effects from it on our area. SFA is dead! Most people have packed up and headed home.

So a funny story: I was watching some TV and Angela came over and help me tape my windows (so when the glass shatters it, shouldn't shatter into too many pieces) and I slammed my door as a joke. THE DOOR WOULDN'T SHUT AFTER THAT!!!!! It kept swinging open and I finally called the office. They sent a maintanence crew out and fixed it within an hour. It was nice of them to do so.

Not much happened today. I was supposed to go and mixdown our recording from the block party HOWEVER, I was lazy all day. So, I guess tomorrow will be the day I do that.

I hope everyone is safe and sound and prepared for the hurricane. I hope to update tomorrow!

Hitting Home

2005-09-22T19:59:00.000-07:00

I am by far, the least emotional person in the world, I think. I am really a solid rock when it comes to emotions, for the most part. When all the news hit the media about Hurrican Katrina, I felt compassion for the folks affected, but it really never got me "upset".

Three weeks have passed and we are now facing Hurrican Rita. I am fascinated with this storm because of a couple of reasons. First, it affects so many people. Not just the folks directly in its' path, but the evacuees still here from Louisiana. Secondly, I have never been surrounded by folks this chaotic. It's crazy! Stores are sold out of everything practically. Major roadways are limited to nourthbound travelers. Classes are canceled. I am baffeled by what's going on. Finally, this is the third largest and most dangerous hurrican ever recorded. That's amazing to be alive in a time when such events happen. However, my "stone like emotions" aren't holding up so well. I am looking at these people on the news and they are so devestated by this storm and it hasn't even hit. It's scary and confusing how much devestation this thing is going to cause. I am worried because this isn't normal. These kinds of disasters are becoming increasingly more common. This isn't normal...

God, I pray that You bless us with safety. I pray You watch over us and You cover us in Your protection. I pray that You bless us with the ability to pick up the pieces and move on. I also pray that we do not loose sight of You in times like these. Let Your love shine through even the darkest of moments. You are our only hope at this time and let us remember that...

The Good, the Bad, the Ugly

2005-09-20T22:50:00.000-07:00

THE GOOD:
Worship practice went REALLY REALLY well tonight. I am working with an ENTIRELY new team to transition Nicholas out of the team. First time these guys worked together (first time Carl led on guitar with a band) and it was quicker than regular practice. It wasn't perfect, but, it was GREAT for the first practice. Good thing being, John is leading our service tomorrow, so, we have another week to run stuff. I am looking at having Nicholas' last Wednesday to be late November. Carl and Adam are leading worship at Grace tomorrow and I think that will be great for them. John and I will lead at Wesley for our traditional service. We met this afternoon to talk about that and some church stuff. Apparently, we may be doing away with the organ and letting the band handle hymn arrangements. COOL! We also talked loops and synth. I am getting to do synth stuff now!!! DANG! I was excited when I heard that. I am very nervous, I am not a piano player, and I know you don't need to be, but it's just scary to have that keyboard in front of me. (Blake, any suggestions in getting started? May have a copy of Reason 3.0...and Abelton Lite Live....?) I also got asked to play percussion for Crosspoint. I am holding off. I don't want any commitment to leadership in Crosspoint, I just want to be a member for a while. My week consists of at least 30 hrs. of Wesley stuff, about 5 hrs. of Grace stuff, 16 hrs. of school stuff, and then barely any personal time. It's been rough and alot of things have had to change, but God's making it happen.

THE BAD:
I made the toughest decision of my entire "drumming days". I turned my best friend Todd down as the drummer for FUMC Lufkin's youth. Reasons being, I have ZERO time. I am very involved with my church home and my worship team. I have no more time for anything else. It hurt my heart so much to say "no" because I know it's hard to have to change plans and arrangments. I couldn't even make a phone call it was that hard. I emailed both Clay and Todd to thank them for all that they have done. I believe God placed me in that situation and allowed me to sacrifice time for the last 3 years so that I could work with my team better. Today was a prime example of that....I learned to transpose from Todd and helped Adam transpose almost all of his music....COOL. Still, it hurts to say good-bye and sadly I know it will be that. I am pretty sure this will affect alot of things. But, if that it, then well....I guess it's out of my hands. I also failed a test today. Physics is kicking my butt! It's going to be somewhat easy to make up the grade, but still, kicking my butt. Also, can't find any time to go home this weekend. With the threat of the storm coming, I may stay indoors and work loops and whatnot this weekend.

THE UGLY:
Umm....it was just a saying, I don't really have to put something here, do I?

Ok, so, lifes been a bit better here lately. Honestly, without traveling to Lufkin every Sunday is going to make school easier and less stressful, though, it's sad I have to do that. I am leading worship at Perritte this Sunday with Nicholas, Carl, and Adam on Sunday. Then, Adam and myself are going to Grace for the 2nd service. It's going to be a long weekend, but, I am feeling really good about alot of things. DUDE, Wesley Worship is going to rock with all the changes that are coming up!!!! PRAISE GOD!

On the Back-Burner

2005-09-15T23:57:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I wrote in my blog. I have been super-swamped with life, school, Wesley, etc. I have a lot to fill you all in on.

About three weeks ago, when everything else started going wrong, my laptop died, leaving me very frustrated. All my loops, software, and drum tracks for Todd were GONE! And of course, like the idiot I am, I never had a backup. Since then, I snagged the Wesley laptop to handle school work and Wesley work. Since I blogged last, Wesley has changed a bit. Sierra, that new vocalist I filled you all in on, has lead a couple of times. She has done really well, and her attitude and respect of myself, the team, and worship is GREAT! I worked with a freshman vocalist, Stephanie, who has also led since then. She's done remarkably well also. Carl Hanke, a drummer/guitarist friend of mine, has since stepped up and help with a new project I am working on. We have an overwhelming vocal group and its a shame to rotate everyone so much. We (Nicholas, Carl, and I) have determined we would like to bands to be responsible for leading worship. It allows for people that either (a) can't commit every week (b) aren't as experienced OR (c) need some help in certain areas....these folks will work with Carl and Khea (another female vocalist) to develop abilities while we still have Nicholas available. What's exciting about this is, Carl will take over for Nicholas in the spring possibly. Carl has really impressed me over the last month and even when we picked a set for his team to lead next week, he had a great prospective of what needed to be done (including transitions and whatnot).

Let's see, classes are rough! I have a lot of studying and alot of it is no fun. The classes themself, are actually entertaining. I have Physics, Business Communications, Radio/TV intro class, and Political Science. Alot of things have had to be moved and shuffled in my life. Gas has gotten REALLY expensive and money is tight as is in college. I have been to Lufkin a few times since school started, but not near as much as I used to. I am even in the process of phasing out of OSM at FUMC Lufkin. Something that has always been a huge priority of mine, even when the adults and leaders questioned why I even bothered. I enjoy leading worship with Todd, don't get me wrong. But, gas is just too dang expensive. Since I haven't traveled to Lufkin as much, school has taken a higher priority. Even cooler, last week, I didn't do OSM due to making 2 trips (1 tank of gas ... $46.31), I attended Crosspoint at Grace. I ended up that afternoon, being asked to play that night. I was somewhat unsure because it had been quite a while since I played percussion with a drummer. It went really well. What made me smile and really appreciate the church and the students was at dinner (which is provided by the elders and adults of the church in the fellowship hall) I was following Angela and got left behind (it was stinkin' crowded)....a student saw me stranded and without me asking, guided me to where she was. I said thank-you, and that was that. What strikes me as impressie as it was a guy....and guys, sadly to say, don't typically grab another guy's arm and assist him. It's, unfortunately in our culture, viewed as something more than friendly....

Next week is going to be really busy. Sunday, I'm on percussion because Kurt (bass player) has the week off. I am debateing doing a pandiero setup or not. Then, I am heading to Lufkin to do youth with Todd. I am not sure how much more I can afford to do youth without another job (which I need anyways). I am having to rush straight home after that to study for a physics test. YIKES! Wednesday, John Rolf will lead worship at Wesley for our "traditional worship" service. The entire team, including my technology folks, get the week off. I was going to do percussion, but I want a week of too. I may or may not.

I forgot to mention, Tracing Mason had a gig last week. I recorded it to my Roland and the mix turned out well. Drums could've been hotter, but they worked for a rough mix. I will upload mp3's to the Wesley site pretty soon, so be watching here for the link. Also, one more thing....John showed me this new program that works alongside with Reason (anyone else who may know more, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE enlighten me)...it's called Ableton Live. It supposedly more powerful than Reason and works BETTER than Reason in live applications. I have had ZERO time to get a demo copy, but I want to check it out. Anyone know anything about it?

So, as the title said, my blog has been on the back-burner. As you can see, I am hardly a flakey college kid anymore. I am really developing better habits and friendships from being more involved. I will try harder to keep you all updated, but no promises. Later!

Kinda Down

2005-08-30T22:15:00.000-07:00

So, lately, I have been in a weird state. I am just really worn out and confused about where my life is going. I am more upset because I am semi-talented at several things and not really good at one thing. I want to go places with my "talent", and don't think I ever really will. I am bummed about church, and things that happen to good people. I try to be fair and nice to everyone, but I guess my efforts will never be truly rewarded.

Depressing huh? Maybe not so much....but tough. I just want something to latch on to and be successful. I want something to be MY thing and make it work. I keep losing more vision every day and that's upsetting. I could wear like SUPER THICK glasses and see SOMETHING, but it's not worth that.

Well, sorry to be a whiner, but this thing was made to put my feelings, and if I didn't express them, then it would be useless and I would mope around all day. Hope to have something GOOD to talk about tomorrow.

Holy Moly!

2005-08-24T21:31:00.000-07:00

God is bustin' down some walls that "we" could never have done "ourselves". See, Wesley (and any youth or college ministry for that matter), loses students (and leaders) each semester. I have gone throgh three different teams since I've been here. A common problem always arose that we don't have anybody to fill vital positions (vocals, guitar). Today I met with Nicholas, Sierra Lawson (a new vocalist), and Carl Hanke (a "new" guitarist) to run some stuff before the full band rehearses next week.

DANG! Sierra is really REALLY good. She's not just talented vocally, but she has the heart to be on-stage. She knew what was tasteful and not distracting, but she also knew when to lay out. I ended up having her lead two songs and she did GREAT! Carl, who I've worked with in other capacities, is actually a really good guitarist. I didn't have any doubt, but you never truly know how a guitarist is until he plays with a band. He's good and could potentially replace Nicholas next spring. God's makin' it happen!

The order of worship stuff has worked out, and I printed our WORSHIP GUIDEs for the first service this afternoon. It is going to be great, and I am pumped about the team. We've got a lot of fresh faces coming in and that's good. New ideas and direction.

I am off, I have to go pack for the big dorm move-in tomorrow. YIKES! I WILL update tomorrow. Later!

DABC Day 4

2005-08-10T21:37:00.000-07:00

So, last day....kinda sad. See, as small as Lufkin is, I won't see most of the new folks I met again for a while at least until we do this thing again next year (which is definite that we will). Jessica's mom (John's mother-in-law) said "See ya again, well, never." and it kinda hit me....doing this brings you to meet alot of new people. However, you rarely come in contact with them again. At least I have Keith Nash as a contact now, which is cool.

We played a good set this evening:

My Glorious
You Are Holy
Whole World in His Hands
Rescue
Nothing But the Blood
Here I Am to Worship

Pat Camarada (finally remembered his last name) is a great speaker. What's cool is Angela and I want to keep learning more from him because he is so interesting. He talked about sin this evening. He seemed like it wasn't what he planned on talking about. He was very real about it, and spoke boldly. He said that he felt like alot of the kids were caught in the biggest sin of all; not knowning Christ. I felt like it is something that is hard to take, but true. Pat did a great job the whole week, but tonight in particular, I felt like he was really reaching the kids. One student was saved, and another re-dedicated her life. Good stuff, that's what it's all about.

Afterwards, Pat and John talked a bit about something that Pat was working on in Houston. A service for those to just come and worship. Sounded like a pretty regular gig, and seemed definite about wanting John to do it. Hopefully, if he does, I will be able to do it with him. John seemed very pleased with the sound we produced, as did I.

Ralph and Kacoos for dinner! DANG! It was pretty stinkin' good...but it reminded me why I don't eat seafood....too filling. We talked alot about what Keith and his team could do differently next year...and he seemed like Pat and John (and myself) were the ones who would do it. We all ate and then said our "good-bye's". I sure did have a good time!

Off to Dallas tomorrow at 5:15am for doctor's appointment all day and then again on Friday. FUN FUN FUN!!!

DABC Day 3

2005-08-09T21:05:00.000-07:00

Today started rather late....woke up really late. I got up and ate some delicious cake that my sister made yesterday. Dang! Strawberry cake for breakfast rocks!

Showered and got dressed and took care of some stuff around the house. Angela was not feeling too well so she came over and slept for a little while as I wrote e-mails to Tom and some Hearts members. I got bored while she was asleep so I watched some TiVo'd episodes of "King of the Hill". That show is pretty funny. She woke up feeling better so we went to get some lunch and pick up my brother at the high school. Her gas was running low and we went to the gas station to find that prices ROSE AGAIN! Enough is enough, it is definately getting way too high!

Headed to the church at about 5:15. We pulled up just as John did. We ran through the set and got a good sound check in.

Holy is the Lord
Famous One
My Glorious
Whole World in His Hands
Rescue
Psalm 19
Majesty

Set went well. "My Glorious" was really cool acoustic. I am getting to the point on djembe where I am finally building some fills and better technique. "Rescue" is a Jared Anderson tune that is pretty cool. Jared Anderson is so good, I am really listening to alot of his stuff lately. The students were definately engaged in the worship this evening. I found out later that there were projection issues and John gave out a good amount of vocal cues for the kids. They still hung in there and sang, which was very cool.

Pat spoke to those who had not been saved this evening. His messaged focused alot on Paul and his journey with Christ. It was a very good message and I truly believe God was working in the room. Pat called for an invitation and we went back up and did "Nothing But the Blood". Two kids were saved this evening, and a couple more re-dedicated their lives' to Christ. It was a very good evening. We packed up and hung out while the kids filtered out.

Chili's for dinner...chicken crispers as usual. It was a pretty big group as usual so we were isolatd as to whom we talked to. It was Pat, John, Angela, and I at one end. John and I talked about my good buddy Ricky Davis. John actually led worship with him a few times. I got to brag about my "I LOVE RDB" shirt!

Tommorrow is the last night of the revival and I am excited about it. Pat has been really good and I look forward to hear what he has in store for the kids tomorrow.

DABC Day 2

2005-08-08T20:55:00.000-07:00

Got up "early" this morning. Sleeping until 11 is just so tough on me...haha! I got up and showered, shaved, you know, the usual....and then I watched a bit of TV. I got to work on the sample CD that I am sending to the praise team.

Around 1, Angela showed up on a lunch break and we went to the bank. Made a much needed deposit and went home.

I listened to some music and got ready to head up to the church @ 5.

I showed up and we were in their youth room today. Keith had moved my stuff so I just set my cymbals up and placed the mics. John showed up and we ran through a couple of songs and talked through the rest. Their youth room rocks! Very trendy, but not distracting.

We started at around 6:30 and here's out set:

- When I Think About the Lord
- O Praise Him
- Majesty
- Indescribable
- How Great is Our God
- Your Love is Extravagent

We ended up throwing in these throughout the service

- You Are God Alone
- As the Deer
- Take My Life
- Give Us Clean Hands
- Holy is the Lord

THE KIDS WERE INTO IT! Even the songs we just threw in, they sang the whole time. It was very cool. John didn't break any strings this time either. John did some cool transitions, and I really was pleased with the responsiveness.

Pat did another great job as well. He was a bit more serious this evening, but, he still got my attention and I know that he had the entire room's attention. Tonight he discussed how we don't need to just be a Christian, we need to DECLARE it. He was very good.

We ended up at Outback for dinner and had some funny conversation. Keith is a hillarious guy and I am glad I was blessed with the opportunity to play at this.

DABC Day 1

2005-08-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

Church went good this morning. Was a bit worried, practices were a bit sketchy, but it went well.

Today was the first day of the DABC gig with John. I am somewhate nervous because this is my first gig with John...but it went well. We ended up leading the ADULT service in their new worship center. BEAUTIFUL building! Sound was nice, we did some cool stuff. John switched mid-set to piano and I used djemebe, shaker, and 2 cymbals.

Funny thing, FIRST SONG (Sing to the King), John breaks a string...I thought, "holy cow, this is going to be hard to pull off"....he pauses mid-song and says "keep singing, just a broken string". THEY KEPT SINGING THE WHOLE TIME!!! John pushes the string out of the way and play the rest of the songs without the string. Tough situation, but he handled really well. I was quite impressed.

Pat, the speaker, was PHENOMINAL. He was funny, knew what he was talking about, and knew how to make us understand it. I expect to LEARN alot from this week.

Went to IHOP afterwards, had the International Passport. All in all, good start!

Freedom Week is Almost Over!

2005-07-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

I don't think I mentioned, my parents were out of town ALL week, out of the country to be exact. They took a plane and went to Jamaica! DANG! Anyways, Nick (little brother) and I held the fort down. Scary stuff! We did rather well...we ate rather well too! We had steak, burgers, lasagna, and fried chicken. We ate good!

It's been an odd week. A very sad event occured. A member of my church passed away. Very tragic, so please pray for his family. They are very good people, and the church lost a very good guy. I was asked to play at the funeral on Thursday and I did. It was a very different service. Justin Beadles is an amazing speaker. He knows what to say and when to say it. And, most importantly, whatever he says, he can show exactly where the Bible talks about it. I have been looking for that...

I am having some Wesley band problems already. Adam, who seemed reliable, is somewhat backing out on me. He just doesn't seem interested anymore. I think Brad may join us for a little while. What some people don't understand is that each part is important, and when they are fickle about their commitments, they can alter the way the band plays.

I got my mp3 player! A 20GB Dell Jukebox. It rocks! I will store my loops and such on it. I am also looking at digital samplers to run loops live. Reason is picking up, figuring more out. I worked with some pretty cool synth sounds this week that could definately be used.

Until tomorrow...

Trouble Again

2005-07-17T20:50:00.000-07:00

...Our desire is to be a church that highly values and practices evangelism, excellence, prayer, missions, creativity, instruction and discipleship. Our vision is to see people being led in authentic worship and being given strong Biblical instruction with relevant applications that spur them on to love and good deeds...

That's what it's all about, right? That's what I think, that's what Grace Bible Church says, and though it's not a "BIBLE CHURCH", shouldn't Wesley view its mission this way? Wesley is in a prime situation. I say this because an overwhelming majority of college kids are consumed with sin. They have no way, lost, straying from Him. BUT, we should encourage and help these people, these brothers and sisters in Christ, to follow and trust in Him.

GBC's got it! What's difficult about doing what the Bible calls us to do? This whole things started this afternoon when I was discussing with some Wesleyans about matter they had question (order of worship, welcome week, etc). I think outreach on this campus is highly important, HOWEVER, right now the Wesley is struggling. I feel the people of the Wesley don't know even how to worship. It seems as though it is a chore to come each week for an hour or so. I've said it before and I'll say it again..."Christ died a painful and truly horrible death and we complain about attending church / a worship service for an hour or two each week?" That's very sad to me.

I don't believe that students of the Wesley know how to worship. But, sadly, it will take more than the students to teach. It HAS to start from the top, Tom Teekell. I can do some, I can lead a Bible Study, I can lead a D-Group (Discipleship Group), I can have the team or myself read scripture in between a song....but it's vital that Tom be constructive to the process.

I think before we orchestrate some big WELCOME TO SFA event, the "inside" of the Wesley needs a bit of "renovating".

Well, I am sure I'll keep you all posted on these matters...I meet with Tom on Wednesday (I am confused about what I should say to him...I do have boundaries)

This week has drained me almost completely...two services in the morning, one at night, usually with two practices in between.....that's alot! Don't get me wrong, I love it, but it wears me out. I have played more drums this week alone, then I have in the last two or three months!

I tracked Todd's drum stuff for "My Savior". I was a big letdown and had complications with "My Lips..." (mainly I was too tired to work, but I also want it to be perfect). Todd can just FIRE me if he is upset (just kidding). Yes folks, that's right, I am holding up the Todd Wright CD Project, ok, get off my back!!!!

This week, thank goodness, is a VERY slow week. I will catch up on rest, clean, work, and program drums and other Reason stuff. Until tomorrow...